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I'm going to try to give the short version my personal backround here.

Once upon a time, I was able to heal, create psi balls, astral project, ect. A situation occured, objects started flying around, a person apologized and all of a sudden I couldn't do it anymore. It was one hell of an experience than left me empty and confused.

I was convinced I lost my gifts.
A friend told me once " you never lose magik, you simply misplace it within yourself".

Now I'll give you, I'll work a spell from time to time. I do my best to keep positive as I beleive positive thoughts bring positive actions. But there are still some things I can't do, and am to afraid to even try.
Meditation- complete waste for me. My mind runs a mile a minute.
Psi balls- I feel nothing.
Healling- I'm terrified of failing, so I don't bother trying. When given the chance, and others have faith in me, I have panic attacks and literally run from the room.
Astral Projection - It's nothing more than a creation in my mind. I know I don't actually leave my body, and my vision are just my fantasy.

So now that I have made my short story long...lol..I seek the help of others.

Is it simply my doubt that keeps me from doing things that I used to be able to with ease? I have gone to the basics in an attempt to try to attune myself, but I still feel empty.

Any suggestions?