Since I was born I suppose I've been a Necromancer. Spiritual activity elevates wherever I go. I can see, hear, feel, and even smell multidimensional beings. These beings are technically everywhere and in ridiculous amounts, but when they notice me noticing them they start following me. I'm not haunted by any specific spirit per say, but they come to visit me. Even as young as 5 I could tell when someone or something was about to die or dying. For a long time these things scared me and I tried to snuff it out. I succeeded for the most part, when I stopped seeing them for years, but I couldn't get rid of it completely.
Now that I'm older and more understanding I can see them again. It's all coming back piece after piece.
Regardless of the fear I had, I still was obsessed with magic in general and have since I was 3 been researching and dabbling in it. But no matter how much I tried or how passionate I became, I never got really good at any of the specific styles. Nothing felt right. One day another diviner told me that I was spreading myself thin and that I should focus and become adept in a specific style first THEN conquer others.
When this happened, and after much consideration, I decided that I would specialize in Necromancy (seeing as how that's what I'm good at anyways). After much self reflection, forced interaction, etc etc, I'm ready to truly start pursuing Necromancy properly without the emotional baggage of my childhood.
Problem is is that I'm not sure where I'M specifically supposed to start or what I should do. I already own some books on basic Necromancy/Death Magic from my past research, but what they ask for I could already do (even doing my scared phase).
They talk about surrounding yourself with death and doing certain rituals so you can summon spirits and talk to dead ETC
but I can and have already been doing that (technically even before deciding to pursue this). Even when I was scared, I surrounded myself with death anyways like some sick love-hate stalker.
I see dead people all the time, so I don't need rituals to summon them. Hell, they come around so much it feels like I have roommates that don't understand that it's creepy to stare at people while they pee.
I even read about how Necromancers need to "give gifts" to convince the dead to help them or whatever. I don't need to do that at all.
I've tried researching other books, looking on the internet, talked to tons of other mages, and I haven't found a single person who can help me figure out what I'm supposed to do next.
I was thinking about reading "Exu and the Quimbanda of Night and Fire" and I was recommended to read "Geosophia - The Argo of Magic" as a starter for Necromancy. Have any of you read these? Are they good? Will they help me?
Anybody out there got some Necro advice?
OR simply if you just want to share your story about how you got into magic or if you have any questions for me or other people PLEASE SHARE