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Hi everyone. I just started being drawn to magic these past few weeks. I'm cautious of magic because I don't want it to solve things that I think can be solved through other ways (like time, love, therapy...), and I don't want to end up using it to gain an enormous ego.

I think my cautiousness around magic comes from my background. I've been meditating for about 5 years on and off, and for the past few years (again on and off), I've been practicing Reiki. I'm a very strong healer, very sensitive to feeling energy and physical distress in other people when I put my hands on them.

I am a bit scared of Reiki and meditation, truth be told, because I had an abusive ex-boyfriend who threatened to kill me using meditation. I know it's B.S. because I'm still alive and he never entered my thoughts/meditation, and also because Reiki helps to protect me from the negative energies out there. But still - I get freaked out about encountering spirits or ghosts. I'm not sure how to get over that, and I don't know if delving into magic is the best thing for me.

Anyhow, if you guys have any input about how to get over my trepidation - if I should - about spirits, ghosts, magic, etc. please let me know. I'm open to any input. Thanks :)

Black Mamba