I have been trying different methods of meditation. I've tried clearing my mind, I've tried focusing by saying something over and over. I've tried visualization.
Unfortunatly, my mind seems to be able to literally think of 3 things at once, picture each thing at the same time and I have yet to be successful of having anything meaningful enter my head.
I read posts here that I feel like I understand somewhere deep inside me, but can't seem to understand on the simplest level, if that makes any sense.
I'm getting frustrated with myself and my efforts. While I know it takes time and practice , I find myself upset that I can do somethings and not fully understand how I am doing it, and try other things that I know I know how to do somewhere inside of me, but can't. I can feel on somedays so much energy within me that it feels like I should be able to see it shooting out of my finger tips. It's to strong on those days actually. I have no idea to do with it. It has at times given me a feeling of being on top of the world, a natural high...but also makes my body ache and feel like I'm going to explode.
It's as if there's a wall in me with a window. I can see inside, and know it's there with an instruction book on what to do with it, but the damn thing is locked and it's 6 inch plexiglass so breaking it won't work.
I could be wrong. Maybe I am not meant to understand things, or go beyond basic spells that anyone with enough will can do. Perhaps I am simply wishing it...but it doesn't feel that way.
I have no idea how to knock down this wall. I have no idea how to get my mind to stop racing and thinking of ridiculous things.
I would recommend you find a very good chakra meditation.
Then take a week per chakra and work on the chakras in ascending order, for about 20 min per session and if possible a 40 min meditation after to relax.
Doing this sort of intense focus on one chakra at a time will allow your body to open up to what energies are inside, and allow your chakras to open and expand.
you might also want to look into a good soul cleansing for a week before or after.
Healer ,I have one or two Meditation Techniques that might help.P M me if you would like me to send you them.They are not from My covens Spell book,but They have worked well with students I have.I know it must be frustrating for you,and I hope you find a way to reach your Knowledge within...Peace
Um I don't know what to say. u tried guided medatation? If that doesn't work try pathworking. I usualy try pathing working. Might I suggest the book magickal pathworking by nick farrer. My sister got me it. And after 2 weeks I got a clear mind.
I understand the chakra meditation will open me to the energy within....but will it help me to control it, or focus it?
It physically hurts at times.
It's not a constant thing, doesn't happen everyday. It's like...it builds up because it has no where to go. So even if I do a simple spell for whatever purpose just because I need it out...it doesn't seem to even put a dent in the level.
I end up going to bed because it's to much, have some....wild dreams and wake up completely exhausted.
Chakra meditation can help with both focus and control. one is part of the other after all. it will yeild control subtly and you will pick it up instinctivly.
heat and pain are to be expected. no pain no gain, and it can definatly be painful..
you need to ground more possibly, or invest the energy in objects for later use.. though that can attract.. visitors.
seems you are growing in strength, suffer "growing pains" of a sort, sleep to ap, and wake drained.
thats just my opinion, but it seems reasonable.
if you do ground, then more extensive energy manipulation practices or maybe ap practice is what would do you well, especially if your body seems to crave the astral.
I'm an oddball, I guess. I'm going to recommend...reading. Just a suggestion. But I'd like to recommend something paricular...lol. Anyhow, I will give you a link, and even if it doesn't help completely, you'll know a little more, and hopefully be able to pinpoint in which area you should focus. http://www.sacred-texts.com/oto/aba/aba1.htm
brace yourself. It's quite a read, but well worth it.
You might want to give this a try, I know it helps me when my mind is going a million miles an hour. It's called Brainwave Voyages. It's an entire series of sounds and resonances that induce certain brainwaves in the human brain. Try the Alpha series first. It's great for getting you into that nice state of relaxation and clearing your head. The first track is the Schumann Resonacnce, the actual "pulse" of the Earth. It's very soothing. If you like the Alpha series, try the others.
all these replys have been absolutely wonderful... try each of them... remeber everyone is different... if the problem still persists in 1 week... let me know by pm... (i have a little last resort tool for people with exactly this problem... but i warn you... it is only as last ersort... it will disorientate you for about 48 hours... but once that is over.... you will feel a lot more in control and your energies wont build up and hurt you anymore... so ya... hope the others help... if not i will hear from you soon
