Ever since I was twelve years old I felt drawn to demons. No idea why though. I was scared for awhile but overcame that fear by the time I was 14. I am 21 now and the reason I never summoned one is because I didn't want to upset my dad and my niece has enough problems. So I was hoping to find answers here. Do you know why I am drawn to demons?
Everybody is drawn to something. Some are Angels, some are gods, some are ancestors and some just are not drawn to any of these beings and that's okay for this lifetime they are meant to experience working with themselves. However, some are like you who are drawn to demons first of all you need to ask yourself a question. Why are you drawn to them? Do you think their artwork just looks cool? If so, then that just might be wishful thinking.
If the reason is something where you are feeling called to working with them. Then you are meant to work with them, but first of all before working with anything or summoning anything. You need to know how to banish, cleanse and protect yourself, research the name of the demon you may be drawn to the most before going into it. Write down reasons why you even need or want to work with their energy before hand. Do not jump right into working with them, for there can be risk if doing so. Research is very important no matter the energy.
I'm not %100 sure if this goes with objects as well, but yes do your research before jumping in too quickly. Here is a question, do you know the kind of demons you are attracted to?
I am mostly drawn to either a few of the generals or something higher. Mainly the ones with power and knowledge. Never summoned but researched them. I am terrible with names though so later I'll do more research and write them down. The only demons I will always run from though are ones associated with spiders (arachnophobia problem.) But sometimes when I am feeling high stress I here a voice telling me to calm down and think. It mostly sounds like a growl mixed with 6 voices speaking at once but the tone always makes me drop my guard for some reason like I am not being threatened (started a year after I overcame my depression. Still don't know who it is.) But I follow it's advice.
Ok I looked up the demons I was drawn to and I found 3 names. I will list them off 1 to 3. 1 being the one I feel the most drawn too and 3 the one who I am least drawn to.
I do know that the reason I'm drawn to Pazuzu is because in my research I found he was invoked to protect women and children back in the time of Mesopotamia.
