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Hello.
I'm Lovely. I've been 'born and rasied' "Southern Christian" since I was born. My entire family are very hardcore, and they love Christ. However, I've never felt at peace in a church, I've never felt like Christianity was in my blood and soul. I've always felt, I guess the best way to describe it would be 'out of touch,' with the God that I was supposed to love. I was so desprate to feel him that I got a tattoo on my arm of a cross. Of course it worked about as well as if I had got "Obey" witten on my arm instead.
I am not here to preach or tell you about your souls burning in hell. I don't believe in hell. How could an all loving God send a person to burn for eternity? I have such a long list of things that I don't agree with in Christianity that I can't name them all here. However, I'm not here to rag on it.
I'm here to understand you all better, and hopefully myself.
I do believe in something much bigger than myself, and I believe in respecting nature. Ever since I was a little girl every time I drank something, or ate something, I'd throw a little of it on the ground, without even thinking about it. My mother used to scold me and ask me why and I told her "the earth gives me a lot so a splash of water is my thank you." Of course my mother thought I was insane.
I believe with all my heart that respecting nature is one of the most wonderful things a person can do, not only for the world, but also for themselves.
I'm here to ask people if there are any books or websites that they would suggest that I read when attempting to learn more about Wicca and The Craft to help me decide if it is something I would like to presue or not.
I have tried searching the internet, but everyone seems to have different opinons on how to do this, or what needs that.
What I'd truely like is to find a mentor that I can trust to talk with me, whom I can ask question, and who can help me on this path.
<3 Lovely <3