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Hey I?m relatively new to the site, but I wanted to get some advice.
My family have always kept me away from specifically any magic involving death or spirits even though they are mostly Wicca people. I always found it weird but talking with friends I explained some instances I have experienced of seeing dead people who have clearly died in gruesome ways, since I was a child I have seen people hanging or burning and my family really don?t like me looking into this side. But I?m wondering if I may have a gift in mediumship they?re trying to keep me away from? Even the idea of something like an ouija board in my house was forbidden but only for me.
My grandmother has a large spell book that she let me look at once and the second I opened the book it was a necromancy page and she got so angry and vowed to not let me near it again. Is there a chance I have some sort of connection specifically with death??