Name: Aconrad2233
Location: Wisconsin
Gender: Female
Last Seen: Wed, 10 Oct 2018
Membership: Member
Personal Bio
Hi, I am not totally sure where my path takes me but I am a Shaman. I am very strong in this even though I am young. I want to find answers to all my questions, but for now, I just want to protect my friends, family and all the spirits that are in danger. I recently spoke to what to me seemed like angles, watching over me and all. I felt them bless me, like a energy, power, never seen before. I don't fully understand why me, or why I have all this in my own life force. I fight and refuse to give up though I don't like it. Nor the pain it may cause others. People are chosen by otherworldly spirits, I just so happen to have a gatekeeper named Annie. I don't think of her as my master, or my trainer, but as my friend. Walking in my path is going to be hard and full of other people. I already ran into people like me, all powerful in their own way. They are now the closest friends I have, and I would do anything for them. To have friends that help protect me and walk in the same realm of power is truly a wonderful thing. Though it hurts to know that bad spirits may attack them, or hurt them, I trust that no matter what they will be here for me. I have battled with spirits before, but I will not kill unless there is no other option. I believe that they will watch over me and help to stop me from the path of evil and from its temptation. To start of on how I became this way, though I must warn you, it's a long story. I was born with a disorder called Parasomnia or Night Terrors. No matter what my parents tried, nothing worked to stop the horrible dreams I had. I had no idea that I was actually traveling to the spirit realm with a strange natural force that I have never seen anybody use before. Even spiritual stones couldn't stop me from traveling. The more I pushed my own power away, the more it hurt me in the end. I was always protected by my friend Annie. She used to play with me as a baby. Though I do not remember much of my past I believe she cared for me as though I was her child. Always looking over me, always there. I started to grow up, and lived my life afraid of the people I saw. Though my parents couldn't see them, all the spirits that followed me, they helped me when I cried in fear. My mom use to sing my a lullaby until I stopped crying. Then I had a friend that was my everything. There was no other girls in my neighborhood, just her. Though we didn't always get along, she was the only person that I could really reach out and hug when I needed. I told her of the people I see, the shadow-men I called them. They weren't after her, but me and I still don't understand why. I told her about Annie and Author who is Annie's brother. He was also helping me, and protecting me. I started to get angry at my parents, and now the spirit world was a happy place for me. Whenever I got mad, I would hold my breath and force myself to travel. I would pass out and go to my happy home in the spirit world where I could sit in the backyard and let all my feeling out. I continued to tell my friend about what I saw. My visions and the shadow-men. One night it was late and I had to go home, but there was a bad spirit outside of her room and she didn't want me to leave her alone. So I asked Annie to stay with her, and protect her. "I know how to take care of them myself" I said. Unfortunately there was too many, and they were too strong. I was almost home, running to the house. I was so close, but I stopped. I saw a child crying, and I didn't care about myself anymore. She was a little spirit girl, or I thought it was. But really, I saw a vision of a girl similar to me crying in the field. The same one I go to, my happy place. Author came and told me to run inside, if I listened to my own vision, I wouldn't of lost him. He tried to stop them from getting to me, but I didn't see him come home. That night I had a dream that I remember, because it wasn't a dream. They came back and attacked me while I was sleeping, draining me of my energy in a dark woods on a rooted table. I was surrounded, and when they did this, I knew they took Arthur, and it was my fault. I grew up and pushed Annie away, though I knew she was real, and that she would never be gone. Always there watching over me. I went to a store called Free Spirit Stones, there I was told that I was "A sensitive." I ended up going back and getting a pendulum which my grandma used to make choices. I didn't know it then, but when I picked up one of the pendulums, I thought of Annie and Author. And I cried, right there, in front of everyone. I didn't care if they thought I was crazy. I did something horrible, I left my friends to live on their own and failed to protect them after they protected me. I wasn't worthy of my abilities after what I did. I finally accepted my abilities and grew stronger. Fighting hoping that one day I would find Author. I begged Annie to show herself in physical form, But she gave me a dream that scared me, a dream where she finally showed herself. But only I could see her, and she was sad because she couldn't go back. She wasn't proud of herself being in physical form. I continued to contact and help spirits. I got very strong at it too. When I cried over all the people I lost in my life, they spoke to me. It was so beautiful to hear them tell me not to cry. And that they were happy and not in pain. I then found out about some people who have Shaman powers too. We stood strong together, stopping bad spirits. When my friend was attacked and used against me by a spirit who was a sister to Annie. But when she asked me where Arthur was I had to tell her that he was taken. She left me and my friend alone and went to save Arthur. She must've become bad when Arthur disappeared. She was captured too and when me and my friends went to save Arthur I stumbled upon her. Even though she hurt me and my friend, I still saved her. After all, it's my fault she turned bad. My fault Arthur was taken. I don't know where Arthur is today, but I know that he is still watching over me. Angie (Annie's sister) promised to do good, and find someone to be a gatekeeper to and protect. That was only a week ago, and I still fight. For all my friends, my family, Annie, Arthur, Angie and all the spirits who need me. I will never stop fighting for them all. Even though they are spirits they still have lives to be lived. And when they need my help, I will do my best. I promise. Looking back writing this was a big decision. I cried thinking about all that I've been through. I have not told you my age yet, and I have decided I will. Because writing this has showed me everything that I have been through already. I am 12 years old, turning 13 in a month on Thanksgiving. I hope this cite will help me to grow and become stronger. To protect the people who need it the most. This is my story, so far...
