Listen everyone please I am really in a lot of trouble right now and I want an instant reply please. For months Ive been getting suicidal thoughts aftrr I became very active in magick last october.
I have started hating myself and I want to die please help.Everyday I have anxiety attacks too that I am a loser seeing people of my age earning billions or having a very good wife.In fact my crush has become a celebrity now which makes me jealous.all this induces suicidal thoughts
Please help me.I am dying every single day
My advice to you would be to meditate, clear your mind and focus on pinpointing the possible reasons that could be making you feel certain emotions. Take a step back, and try to examine these things from every possible angle.
I also recommend grounding and cleansing yourself of these negative emotions, energies, what have you.
Engage in physical activities, draw, paint, seek to actively give your mind something to do, other than focusing on what brings upon those thoughts and feelings.
Disconnecting or distancing yourself from technology and spending more time outside or at a park may also help.
One talk to a professional, there's suicide hotlines, and websites/apps to connect you to someone. Betterhelp.com and talkspace.com are two that come to mind. Talk to people about these things to try and find an expert to help you.
As for spiritual/magickal options, journaling, meditating, grounding/centering your energy, shadow work, deep breathing, improving your diet/exercise. You might wish to take vitamin D and some St. John's Wort to help you [pleaee only take one pill of each a day as too much of either can cause health issues] a gratitude journal or affirmations can help you look on positive aspects of your life. A vision board can also help you to see the future you are working towards. You might also consider making an altar for yourself with images of you as well as people you admire, perhaps even cast spells to help you with courage, positive energy, luck, joy, and whatever else you wish to bring into your life.
Above all else though, I would talk to someone, a loved one, a doctor, a therapist, someone from a hotline, you can explain everything in detail and get more professional help so you can work through everything and come out the other side safely [use every opportunity you can to get better] best of luck to you.
There are so many people that care about you here. I know how bad anxiety attacks can be. I have an anxiety disorder myself. Just keep positive thoughts in your mind. In some cases, it is good to talk to others about how you feel. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I have had suicidal thoughts myself. Feel free to add me as a friend!
