I'm going to suggest you take a step back and work on your meditations. I am going to provide you with two different methods here.
Sit down, close your eyes, clear your mind and concentrate on your breathing. Be aware of every breath you take in and breath out.
Don't try to control your breathing, or try to slow it down forcefully. Just breath normally, and pay attention to the air passing through your nose, lungs and going out again. Breathe through your nose.
After a few breaths, start counting. Breath in, one………breath out ,two……..breath in, three……..breath out, four… breath in, five….. breath out, six
If you find yourself thinking of something else instead of your breathing, just acknowledge it, and return to your breathing, and start counting again
6. You will begin to notice the sensations of your breathing. The depth, the speed, see if your breathing becomes increasingly slower and quieter, if your breathing more and more goes to your stomach or your chest, if your body becomes more relaxed through your breathing, …etc.
If at any time you notice any strange feelings in your body, like twinklings, or muscle reactions, just notice it, it is quite normal. Go back to your breathing
Once you get to 100, slowly return to normal, open your eyes, take in everything you see in the room, get up and stretch your muscles.
This next method uses a candle flame.
Have your candle at eye level so you can see the flame easily.
Sit down, close your eyes and concentrate on your breathing, just as in the first meditation technique mentioned above
Be aware of each breathing in and each breathing out.
After taking a few breaths, open your eyes and focus all your attention to the flame.
Breathe deeply and steadily while staring at the flame. Don’t think of the candle, the flame, or anything else.
Breathe deeply and steadily while staring at the flame.
Continue to focus on the candle for however long you had set aside for your meditation.
close your eyes and visualize the flame as being on the inside of your eyelids. Hold the image for as long as you can without straining yourself.
If the image disappears or you start thinking of other things, just try to get the image of the flame projected in front of your eyes again.
When the time is up, just take back your thoughts slowly to the environment around you, open your eyes, get up and stretch your legs.
When you are done with your meditation, I think it would be wise for you to study the correspondences because as stated in the SoM Survival Guide 1.1 "Knowing your correspondences and associations-such as astrological signs, planets, moon phases, chakras, auras, candle colors, and their meanings etc." is important in the working of magick.
List of Commonly Accepted Concepts and Basic Skills of Magic:
Meditation
Visualization
Alignment of Energy
Centering & Balancing Energy
Raising & Sending Magical Energy
Charging & Empowering
Grounding Energy
Altering Consciousness
Desire & Will
Casting the Circle
Love
Knowing your correspondences and associations-such as astrological signs, planets, moon phases, chakras, auras, candle colors, and their meanings etc.
These came straight from the SoM Survival Guide 1.1
I have done many spells. Throughout my time of practicing I have had some that didn't work, some that worked a little, and others that have worked the way I intended.
Have you spent a long time getting to grips with the basics? When you have, you will find that you are more inclined to wish to write your own spells. I only ever use someone elses spells as an inspirational template, your spell will have much more power if you design it yourself :)
Hell;
I am a student of the Magickal Arts, and will always be, because of the vast amounts of grimoires, books, articles.
Morgaina has given you great basic information. I would never presume to know than her however, may I make a suggestion?
Have you ever been excited of something that you had accomplished or, someone gave you a compliment for a job well done and you could not contain your excitement and you just had to tell someone and you were very excited as you told someone close to you? This is a basic and very strong GOOD emotion. This is what you need to think about and act like, when you state your spell. There is more to this, as Morgaina stated but, essentially this step, will give your spell plenty of energy to cast your spell. I hope this helps. A fellow student.
