I have recently read its the personal stuff which makes you feel comfortable, does not have to be anything fancy, seems weird I went a week without seeming to make progress then BOOM everything connects lol.
Not done anything for the last week, and been finding that I have not been sleeping properly for and has been gradually getting worse, going to start again tonight, is it important to keep meditating once starting, or should this not be happening?
through the last few weeks I have been practicing the basics, I have forgot to keep my chakras balanced. I have now had to go back a bit, so I learned a lesson, although I never ment to cutting corners only sets you back in the long run, so practice your chakras just as much.
I had a revelation today, yes got quite a surprise but also in the process learned something about myself and in sharing this I hope it helps you understand a block created by your self. I mentioned the chakras, but I was struggling to get in touch with my throat chakra and crown, first with my throat is expressing myself, my crown to do with my divine. I never have been one to express or talk about myself, I suppose doing this thread is the first time I have ever done anything like this, The basics have made me see a lot but in the process I have gone through a major self discovery, I have had tantrums, headaches and sleeping troubles. My wife has put up with them all and I love her for this more then anything. Back to my experience, I was explaining my troubles with my chakras with RashnuX, she asked if I had trouble expressing myself, and yes I do, I bottle things up until I explode, I never ask for help its my problem in a sense I will fix it, until I joined SoM. I spoke to her of my fear of been alone, then we talked about my crown to do with the divine, I believe but always was a skeptic of it, though I believed, I did not fully give myself over till tonight. It made me realize how much of yourself you have to give, its not just your mind, body and soul, its your will and your belief, maybe its one in the same but it seems right to describe it like this.
So while opening up, expressing, admitting I believe but was looking for a sign, RashnuX made me see I had possibly already missed some of the most obvious signs, and as I realized I started to get a pressure in my head, I just closed my eyes and thought, ok I am here and ready to listen, and I felt a wave like pulse go through my whole body, it felt cold but a nice cold, followed by a vibrating pulse that continued then stopped, the pressure was no longer a pressure but a relaxed enjoyable pressure. As I was talking, it would change depending where my thoughts where going, and what I was thinking, pressure build up if wrong or no, and a release or pleasant vibration if yes, or agreed. It was wonderful even though I spoke in a third perspective, but I finally let mother in (mother earth) she is happy I accepted her at last, yes i feel a little weird talking like this but I don't care. It feels right, so when it says you have to give everything over to fulfill your dreams and reach your goals on here, it meant absolutely everything, don't hold back anything or you could hold back yourself. I think she is happy I spoke to her, but the part on how she speaks to me I will have to work on.
I am very honored to have been around when this happened for you. =)
One thing to keep in mind..at some point, every seasoned practitioner has questioned their own sanity when it comes to dealing with their spirituality. I think most of us have a few stories that if we shared with those who do not practice or are not in tune with their spirituality, it could easily get us locked up in a white jacket ;)
Yep I can't switch it off, tried grounding and saying no, so going for the ride it out option. It is not always there, just now and then more when I relax, does not matter where or when. I am just going to ride it out and let my body adapt to whatever is happening.
Sometimes the feeling is overwhelming, others it kinda feels unpleasant like a warning. Also maybe when I ask a question when no one is there, I am getting the answer I want, just odd its coming and going at will.
Sorry for no reply in a while, been pre-occupied. I have found sorrow can put a knock on your focus quite a bit, trying to find my balance to a degree again I think, I did manage to AP last night, though can't remember the event, I remember myself leaving, then woke up an hour later.
