I decided to forgive all that has been done, but the memories still effect me. Usually taking a deep breath and releasing that unnecessary hatred or negative energy. I had thought the spirit was still around but I'm not all too sure.
I decided to record and ask if there was any spirits around me. I said "Are there any spirits in my presences" and very faintly I had thought I heard "Everyday" but you know, some noises can mimic certain sounds because I went back and forth just to see if I could hear it more vividly. Especially when your mind is racing.
I live in a dysfunctional family with a lot of problems, we recently lost one of relative but all this happened right after he had died. I would assume it has something to do with myself, no job, in a midlife crisis. I sort of understand what you're saying but I was still pretty happy then, seeing the bright side of life.
I would have to admit I do drink too much tea and coffee and cutting down shouldn't be a problem. I've been having lack of sleep ever since the attack, it's strange because a few nights I said to myself that I would only sleep 6 hours and I only slept 6 hours. I gave that a test. On the following day I said I would only sleep 1 hour, so I only slept one hour. Which is very unlikely of me. I mostly sleep 10 hours and that depends on my activity during the month. I've been trying to eat only homemade food.
I felt drained most of the day, like now I feel so refreshed from the sleep I've had but still having the feeling of being drained. It depends if something has annoyed me extremely as well. And I'm trying to let go of the little things. It's almost like a life lesson which to be honest, I'm enjoying in a weird way.
I feel that there isn't anything bothering me. All it has done is drained me and run of like it doing a heist. lol
Meditation has helped me quite a lot but I'm certain it is going to take a lot more energy to fully recover, some people has suggested going to angels or even demons. Since it was a spirit attack, going to angels or demons might be a good idea according to a few people.
I think I made that mistake already by giving it what it wanted, but I've slowly come to realise that and so I'm giving it nothing now. The problem is family, I've tried to explain to one of them but the other one is an atheist who simply wouldn't understand - going for long walks helps too.
I am glad to hear (I guess read?) that you are finding purpose in the situation. I find that adversity of any kind is a powerful teacher, even if it is rather unpleasant at the time. It offers opportunities to learn of the imbalances in one's life, making them visible enough to actively understand and grow from.
Some times you find that the situation itself can't be changed, but perspective can. And if you are fortunate it can only take a single word to break a mental cycle. For example, instead of dwelling on the thought "I don't have a job", when you catch yourself thinking about that add the word 'yet'.
"I don't have a job, yet."
Still identifies a problem, but puts the perspective on a reminder that you are working on it, and you -will- get a job eventually.
In life my personal philosophy goes like this; "Success does not come from lack of being knocked down. Success comes from always getting back up just one more time. There is no such thing as failure until you lay down and stay there."
It sounds to me like you're still getting up. That means victory is assured!
