Thanks man I am really thankful for your response I will answer your questions one by one:
1-I live in upper Egypt in a small village near luxury called Nowata its a family heritage that every father teaches the ancient Egyptian languages to his sons my father told me that my grand grand father was the guardian of the tombs and from generation to another most of my family now work in archeology
my story begins in the night I completed 21 years old I was home alone my family was in luxur I lost some of my books and I went to the basement to search for them here and there I did not find them I and so I started to look in my fathers stuff I found a book it was completely empty not a single word in it not even book title and so I left it opened and I walked away and forgot to close the basement door after 5 min I remembered and I returned to close it and then I heard a voice almost a whisper
I went down to see what was that I found nothing but I saw the book I just left empty full of writings I red only one sentence
It was written the what called (hatoran seeth) guardians of seth (Egyptian god) (I tried to write the sentence for you but I cant). I am bleeding right now and I don't have asingle scratch. I waked up the next morning in the hospital my brother told me that he found me in the basement covered with blood bleeding from my eyes my ears my mouth when I told my father about that he told me he hasn't such a book he went home with mother and he found nothing he searched every inch but nothing
2-I have dreams like reality so real sometimes when I woke up I feel like I have been in another place . all the dreams almost the same a sad beautiful girl dressed in black crying and a snake is wiping away her tears and there is this man dressed in white come from behind and kill her with his sword sometimes a claw then she fell down the ground and say my name and here the madness begins I see my self killing people and eat their livers roaring like an animal screaming sometimes riding an ox a huge dog I see thing I can not describe killing and blood and in the end darkness an I hear the voice of that girl saying my name again (in the language I told you about my real name is faris its an Arabic name means knight in English) you know at that moment I feel like the only thing I want to do is going to her than I wake up screaming madly
3-I did not involve any kind of magic or dark arts in my life I have never interested in such things
4-my father took me to more than 50 doctors and done nothing so he took me to a spiritual one he told me to set down in the middle of a drawing on the ground like a circle and five stars and one big star in the middle he started to speak in a funny language he only said look in my eyes the moment I done that the man screams like hell jumping and hitting him self like he is on fire I left the place running
Please if you have any way that can help tell me. My life is hell sometimes I think of killing my self. These voices make me mad I nearly killed someone today help me please
Your dream broken down, (well most of it.. I had to stop).
1) Hearing the voices call you:
This is a warning call to your own serois misfortune or that of someone close to you. If the voice is recognized, it is often ominous of accident or illness.
2)Murders and slaughtering of others :
To see murder commited in your dreams, foretells much sorrow arising from the misdeeds of others. If you commit murder, it signifies that you are engaging or already engaged in some dusgonorable advnture, which will leave a stigma upon your name.
3)Serpenat & snakes :
Is indicative of cultivated morbidity and depression. To dream of snakes is a forebonding of evil.
Snake interacting (with this girl)
is a sign that you will be placed in a position where you will be powerless in the hands of your enimies you will be nonplussed to distinguish your friends from your enemies.
I had to stop here because it seamed that I was only repeating things that you already know about yourself.
My prognossist is that you my friend have been touched by an evil hand. I do not belive that you have been possesed but this book that disappeared is the key. You must find it. For it to be found among your fathers stuff and he knows nothing about it makes me uneasy.
Granted I do not know you or your father, but I do not think he is being 100% honest with you. I believe he does know what this book is and where it is. I think he is terrified of it yet intreged by its properties. I know it is not in my best interest to speak ill willed towards your father but it just seams a little strange.
You can see about contracting an excorcist of something along those grounds but I do not belive you are possesed, although the reaction of the doctor was very odd. He had the response of possesion.
It could be a vision of the futute, not a dream. Darkness is rising, and humanity is falling under the shadow.
But there is still hope and the darkness is not as tough as it thought it was.
It is also possible that you opened the book and released a bound demon. It could have attached itself to you in a number of ways. Contract, aural attachment, possession.
Get somebody to examine your aura. That Should at least tell what's going on.
Maybe somebody else placed the book there for you....
Also, if the book was about Seth then.....Maybe.....as a Really Remote possibliity............Seth has blessed you?
As an evil god his "Blessing" would be hella different from a good god.
