I tried some spell to eliminate some bastard that killed a 3 year old i focused all of my aura on him trying to stop his heart with it but in away i fainted and the next day the guy was sent to the hospital im happy but now my boddy feels heavy and the guy that posted the spell said my aura wil start to turn darker and darker the more i do the spell.
So he killed a 3yo and didn't get sent to jail for it? Ok, don't answer that, not important.
Despite the circumstances, my only comment is this.
First off, ignore the "warning" on this spell and listen up.
When performing any magick what matters is your intent and what's in your heart. Based off your own feelings and beliefs on a matter. In this instance, you desired to kill a man. Whether any magick is successful or fails, regardless you tried.
Before performing anything in magick, you need to ask yourself, would I be willing to do this physically. Of course, I don't suggest anyone try to kill someone. But in this instance of your desire and attempt, could you have looked into his eyes and killed him (hypothetically) if it were 100% legal and be able to look at yourself in the mirror and feel good about yourself afterward? 95% of the time the answer is no. If the answer is "no" than you should not attempt it magickally because regardless you are putting forth effort to cause it.
This goes for any harmful magick in general. Most people who throw harmful magick would not be capable of harming someone in person (mentally and emotionally). It is far easier to will it from your home, and I think that "comfort" is a dangerous thing that gets people into trouble spiritually.
For every action there is consequence. There are very few situations in anyone's life where harming someone else settle's well in their mind.
Mind--this is the main factor of what causes "bad karma", "dark energy", etc. It is totally your own conscience working against you.
Magick uses this all the time for both positive and negative reasons because this is a very well known element in the way magick is fascilitated (by the person's mind/belief).
A healer casts with fancy chants, tools, fragrant oils or incense in front of the ill one. The sick individual see's this and BELIEVES it will help. Now not only is the caster using their will, but they're being aided by the one sick. Unknown to the "patient" they are helping too.
Let's go to the more destructive side of magick. A curse is placed on you. How do you know? You found some articles of magick on your doorstep. A creeping feeling dances up your spine. You shut the door. Dread fills your heart. They have officially made you help them. Now you're thoughts spin with what could happen. You're worried and fearful. You shove the thoughts aside and try to laugh it off. But in the back of your mind, it's still there....you're cursed--but not only by the caster. Unknowingly you are feeding the magick. That object on your doorstep could have been a dead animal brought up by a neighbors cat. But you may still end up being effected by a curse--a curse of your own mind.
Thoughts and emotions fuel magick. We effect our surroundings every day of our life with how we think. Not only will our perspectives be effected, but our actions. And this in turn will cause more negative or positive reactions. It is the law of attraction.
My advice to you is to make peace with yourself about what you've done. How to do that is a personal choice. Then start becoming a more positive person (in thought, emotion, and action). At first this may just be "going through the motions" and not felt "at heart" but eventually, it will become natural and enjoyed. And you'll be a happier person for it. Dwelling on this will only attract more negativity. Don't fall into that cycle. It is a difficult one to escape from.
Also, next time that someone kills a three year old, or something like that let the police handle it. They will catch the guy and he will be sent to jail. Also, wouldn't it be great if there were Wiccan or Pagan psychologists who could deal with these matters? That way Witches, and other people who practice the craft could go in for emotional help and not be seen as crazy.
There are more psychologists involved in the occult than you realize. Carl Jung was famous for that. I've gone through half my bachelors for psychology. I plan to go back to complete it and get my masters as well, when my daughter gets a little older. I want to change colleges though, the one I was in focused primarily on biological/clinical psychology. I want to attend one that has more professors that specialize in the behavioral aspect.
I feel weird breaking from the science of the mind discussion.
Anyhow, you need a heavy cleansing and healing, more than I am able to advise you on. Also, stop before you hurt yourself more, or at least until you understand better what you're doing.
Once, I did a positive spell for someone that requested that I do one on them. For 2 days straight I took on the emotional and physical burdens they'd been carrying around. This wasn't the first time I cast on someone and had this type of reaction, just the fist I noticed.
My friend, who learned via family tradition, told me that we create an indefinite link when we cast on someone, so you make absolutely sure you want that person to share a piece of you before you cast.
To 'band-aid' yourself in the meantime, try bath cleansing while the moon is still waning. Or, an anytime fix, 'rid hull from your harvest' by taking 1 fist full of any type of grain and, from the front steps of your house, throw it far as you can in three separate directions.
Tanx people for the advise but i could'nt just watch the son of a :-x go to jail after doing what he did, he took the 3 year old boddy parts for dark magic uses and it happend very close to my house it could have been my lil bro,people like that must be burned alive so dont tell me about the police.
I'm really sorry that you saw that. It must have been awful but next time, let him get the death penalty and remember, people who really practice the craft legitimately don't cut up little kids up and use them for dark magic. This is some crazy person that has a delusion in his/her head that will probably either get life in prison, or the death penalty, so why waste time and energy when you know he's going to die anyway? Sorry, I don't mean to sound insensitive, I know this must have been horrible for you and I think you should probably go see a psychologist for a while. Trust me, they work wonders and they're not just for crazy people. Psychologists talk to and see completely sane people too. So, it might help you more than you realize to be able to get these feelings out to somebody trained. Also, be sure not to mention anything about killing that person with magic.
