Heya, I'm scotty - I was on this site and many other sites a few years back, and it's only a few hours ago that i've found this one again.
My past experiences and beliefs with anything spiritual is complicated, and i'll explain in a way that doesn't give away personal information.
When i was 13, I had decided with a few friends that we'd look into some of this kind of stuff, nothing too 'risky' or as we believed 'dangerous. Just harmless Energy Manipulation techniques. As time went by I became more and more open to the theories and practices of anything spiritual I began to make more and more discoveries and eventually had found friends to help with this. I had a few bad experiences with the spiritual that i'm not going into. But a few years ago, everything that I believed or experienced was called into question when I was diagnosed with something - which lead me to question all of this.
At that time, I had a lot of bad experiences with 'magical beings'... But in the end, it left many things questionable - such as the reality of it all. My main rule about researching into this stuff, was to always maintain a level of realistic logic.
After a long period of time, I let myself cool down - because the main problem I had was obsession with researching. Which if anyone ask's me the risk's of researching - this would be in my top 10.
Anyway... After various talks with friends - I have decided to clear my mind about the research and theories previous and find out what my beliefs were - and if the things I experienced were real or not.
In terms of spiritual faith, I relate myself with Paganism. I don't practice rituals of paganism - or at least I haven't for years, however I do have some theories and beliefs within my life about it.
Alright, that's enough of that aha :) If you want to, send me an inbox or something - i'm always welcoming to talk with anyone about these kinds of things :)
Welcome back although I don't know you (I've only been here a little over a year). I always like the challenge of debate/discussion over reality/truth.
May I ask "diagnosed with something" is very...vague. I don't mean to pry but that something must have been big to make you want to reassess life. Is this something fatal? Or just life altering?
You're 18 and sometimes "whoa" to teenagers is just an "oh" to those who start counting how many years they've turned 18. My friend just told me he's turned 21 for 6 years now. I have to agree with him.
I wasn't sure if I was allowed to say on here. Basically I was diagnosed with a Mental Illness called 'Psychosis'. This illness comes in episodes (Typically) and basically loosens the grip on reality. It's not technically like that, but I'm not sure on how to phrase it.
Before I knew I had this, I was heavily researching into the spiritual - designing many techniques and creating thousands of theories.
Being the nature of this disorder, you can see how it pulled everything I have believed or experienced with the spiritual into question. I'm just now trying to piece together what actually happened - if it was plausible and if what I thought and knew at the time was real.
- Real's not the right word, more like true.
However - ever since re-opening myself to these possibilities, and the practice of various rituals and one in particular performed last night. I can say that stress and bad feelings are leaving me, i'm feeling much happier within myself. I've been ill with various flu-like symptoms for a months or so, and i'm finally starting to feel relief.
I guess the reasons i've come back onto this site, is primarily for knowledge and support. :)
Btw - It wasn't under this account, it was under an older one which i've completely forgotten about. :)
Thanks for taking time out to talk to me,
Love and Light,
Scotty.
Psychosis can be difficult to deal with. I have had several experiences with it myself during times of insomnia. Its great to have you back Scottie :) L.L.B ~ Angie
Thankyouuu! I've always had an open mind about all of this stuff - I do practice with rituals and technique's a fair bit - or I used too. As long as there's someone on here with genuine knowledge and open-mindedness to talk too, then I'm happy to talk to anyone that wants me too :)
