Hi everyone. I just started being drawn to magic these past few weeks. I'm cautious of magic because I don't want it to solve things that I think can be solved through other ways (like time, love, therapy...), and I don't want to end up using it to gain an enormous ego.
I think my cautiousness around magic comes from my background. I've been meditating for about 5 years on and off, and for the past few years (again on and off), I've been practicing Reiki. I'm a very strong healer, very sensitive to feeling energy and physical distress in other people when I put my hands on them.
I am a bit scared of Reiki and meditation, truth be told, because I had an abusive ex-boyfriend who threatened to kill me using meditation. I know it's B.S. because I'm still alive and he never entered my thoughts/meditation, and also because Reiki helps to protect me from the negative energies out there. But still - I get freaked out about encountering spirits or ghosts. I'm not sure how to get over that, and I don't know if delving into magic is the best thing for me.
Anyhow, if you guys have any input about how to get over my trepidation - if I should - about spirits, ghosts, magic, etc. please let me know. I'm open to any input. Thanks :)
Join the club sweety. The thing you need to do is iliminate your fear which only you can do. Stay weary but don't fear. Even the nasty spirits are usually only trying to pass a message on. It sounds to me as if you need to go speaking to a few healers I found then in the Evangelist Church, i know they are christian but it's worth a try as they don't care what religion you are and respect that everyone works different.
Thanks Brrr for your reassuring words. Yeah I got to get rid of this fear - it's slow going but your words help a lot. I've never seen a ghost, but I've had one ghost encounter (object moving on its own) that I believe may have been a spirit trying to warn me about my ex-boyfriend. I know a lot of my fear is unfounded and based on what my ex-boyfriend told me.
How did you find these healers in the Church? You can PM me. Is there anything/anyone specific I should ask about?
hi the evangelists churches in which brrr was on about really do help ive been to one about knee problems and other problems and the healers there really help you along with whatever it is your having trouble with although i still have pain in my knee its not as bad anymore. so i would suggest trying to find one and attending.as for your ex im sorry to hear that he was abusive i really cant stand people like that i just hope you know that in time he will be punished for what he did. well anyway hope you get along with the healing and the only advice i can give you is if you live in fear it will consume you but if you face it you will over come it
blessed be
The moving of objects is a resort to the voices that aren't being heard. It's like right your not going to listen to me listen to this. So your instinct could very well be right and instincts usually are.
As Far as finding an Evangelist Church erm if you live in a country where there is Chrisianity then you could quite easily find one in the local telephone book or on the interent. If you are in a country that this church is unlikely to be then ermmm I'm not entirely sure. Where do you live and I'll see what I can come up with for you.
Hi Polki123 and Brr, Thanks so much for responding. Well I'm from Canada so I know there are churches here - I guess I'm not sure how to go about doing it. I guess I just go to the church and say hi, I'm a healer, I'm not crazy? I don't really share my healing abilities with people because they tend to look at me funny...
As for fear, I'll keep trying to overcome it. I'll keep meditating...
theres no need to be afraid with sharing your healing abilities with anyone you would be surprised how many people search the internet for people to heal them (i am one of those people)if need be tell your parents or close friends about what you can do as long as you tell someone then you will slowly gain confidence and be able to share your abilities with everyone else. again i was once liked you kept my abilities to myself but then one day i told my mum and she has supported me ever since in my magickal upbringing she has even brought most of the books for me
