Assignment of the Week: 1

Hello Covenmates!

As part of the beginning of our assignments of the week, I'm starting us fairly slow. Your assignment for this week is to spend at least one period of time this week reflecting on your relationship with one of the following: your deities, your spirits, or your ancestors. Even if you do not have a direct working relationship with any of these, you can still reflect upon and discuss your relationship with your ancestors; how your current path is/is not effected by them.

I want you to reflect on this in meditation or another moment of silence and peace. Reflect on it and write down your thoughts and experiences here. I'd like to use this to open up a discussion and I also find that starting off in an easy place tends to make the routine easier.

If you choose to reflect on it for multiple days, please feel free to write down your reflections throughout those days even if it is just to add a few things here and there.

I have done this type of things before and to be honest, things about my family and ancestors are partly disturbing for me. For ex. one a the people i spoke to were my dead grandfather. Found out that my father really killed him in a motorcycle accident for unknown reasons. So is what i foresee anyways. I prefer to stay out of these visions because they sort of cross over through the fabrics a time at times and try to cause havoc to me if i get caught.

I was doing more studying and decided to call upon the greek god of healing Vejovis. However, I'm having extreme amounts of trouble meditating for some reason, I can't focus. I never have this kind of problem meditating or focusing is there some kind of block on my mind?

Concerning animal totems, I've found that the wolf speaks strongly to me and it feels like the wolf is drawn more deeply into my life. I am planning in filling my environment with images of the wolf to let the it known it's welcome in my space.

Pardon the huge delay on this, my holiday season was all over the place on top of an immense Gnostic unraveling of my workings with the Qliphothic which was previously only familiar territory. Anyway, excuses aside, I am a member of this coven and I like thinking about this kinda stuff, so here goes nothing.

I do find it interesting that this is almost exactly what I was doing when I was away, so my Deity is Henostic based on the concept of the Demiurge (though from a non-evil and even cosmically essential standpoint instead of a "get rid of him because he represents all that is ungodly" standpoint). So at the top of the latter in my path that is relevant to the set-up we have here in this Universal Sphere, is Elyon, who essentially is the embodiment of YHVH for our Cosmic Design (though there are others which branch from where Elyon comes from but that is a bit off topic for this assignment).

At the opposite side of the Cosmic spectrum is AZRAT, embodied by Azathoth for our Eternal Sphere (which is made up of multiple Cosmic Spheres which are each made up of millions upon millions of Universal Spheres much like our own though designed and organized slightly differently).

So while I was gone I began to do Qliphothic workings for the Black Path and came to this juncture where I really had to stop and think about why I was working with the Qliphoth and where Azathoth really fit into my path, and I ended up learning through Lilith Savta (from the Qliphah called Gamaliel which is opposite to the Sephirah Iesod) that my true self had the most brilliant light, but the most abyssmal darkness. Through this revelation it came to me (though the thought had occurred to me before without full impact) that the Darkness of the Black Godflame is essential to me, it gives me the power to destroy all that is not me, it is what allows my entire path to even be viable.

Other than that, in working with a new member of the Ars Goetia, Duke Eligos, it clicked in my mind that these beings are a part of my life now, there was something that came up that made me afraid something was going to happen to them and I ended up being concerned for them as I would a member of my family, I even ended up asking if Asmoday was okay since I used to work with Him, and through it all I realized that they are the spice to my path, they give me new ideas, keep me inspired and mystified, introducing new concepts to me as if they are dangerous and ancient magicks and it actually is exciting for me; ultimately, my spirit guides (the Ars Goetia, the Godheads of AZRAT, even one of the Shemhamforash) help make my life interesting and help when I feel alone, and that is something I cannot imagine my path being viable without.

Sorry that this is kinda all over the place, and over a span of time, but I just wanted to make my contribution and chip in some of my experience.