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In order to keep your studying in secret, try keeping everything in your head, not writing huge books like Necronomicon or Grimoire of Ancient Worm with bright covers and pentacles drawn on them) That will certainly be noticed. You may make some amulets, yet hide them well. Also, avoid talking about your interests. Some people might then use this info against you or just start bullying.
And about the issue if you are able to perform magic or not, just try asking other questions first - can you dream of some things which are far from our terrestrial life, this mediocre existence? If you do, then you have the fantasy. And if you have a fantasy, then you have the greatest source of energy for your magic and magic itself.
There are no institutions anywhere where you can get some exam on your magic abilities or whatever) Just if you have interest in mystical things, folklore, or just horror fiction, then magic would be a nice hobby for you. And if you spend some time on it, you might even move your interest on a higher level and become a master of your subconsciousness and magic... It needs time. If you like it - it is yours, if you don't - it is not.
If one likes being a shephard, he won't be able to blacksmith. Yet, if he is a shephard who would like to try himself as a blacksmith, it is likely that he may succeed there.
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