So, today my dream started the same way as the other i had a couple weeks ago.
In the first one, i was back at my old flat (i haven't lived there since i was 12) and i was a little boy again. At first, i was walking around the living room when a shadow appeared and told me to grab it's hand. I didn't know why i did but i guess i felt safe. The shadow wanted to show me something and a few seconds later i woke up.
Today, i was back again at my old flat but i was still 18 and again that shadow came up and once again i grabbed it's hand and i went to the kitchen where my mom was with a boy that appeared to be my age (18). When i realized, i was back at being a little boy. That was the moment when my mom looked at me, worried, and said, come look at your brother's foot. She appeared to be treating the guy's foot from what it looked like to be a small cut or something. Then, when i came closer to see his face, everything went dark and i was 18 again and on my room on my new house. There, was what seemed to be a bat with some weird face, it wasn't a regular bat head, in some ways it looked human but not at the same time, it's hard to describe it. anyway, when it came closer to me at high speed, i tried to smash it's head against a wall but it just flew to my bed and stayed there, looking at me and the next thing i know i woke up shaking and covered in cold sweat with my heart racing a lot.
The weirdest thing is that when i was dreaming i knew that wasn't the real world and i was in some kind of lucid dream but somehow this is still haunting me and i can't figure out what it meant. All my life i kinda had a sense that something's missing or something's wrong and sometimes i have some flashes of what appears to be old memories from my childhood that i've been trying to ignore because it could be my mind just playing tricks on me.
Do you guys have an opinion on what it might have been?
There are tons of dream break-downs, analyzers, and dictionaries out there, and a lot of them free online. However, I personally think dreams are much more personal than that. You could peruse some of the free resources out there to see what bats represent, or what friendly shadows represent and so on, and then just see what feels 'right' to you from what you've read. Otherwise, you could just ask yourself what bats represent to you, or what the room in your house you were in means to you and then just take it from there. You could just break it down step by step and write down what each part means to you and it should go a long way toward putting that particular puzzle together.
