Hello! I've been looking into enochian magick, at first out of curiosity, but then I became intrigued by it. I've read a couple of books about it, but I wanted to know to opinion of other people over it as well, not just of those who wrote the books.
From what I understood so far, enochian magick is very powerful and only a part of it has been understood so far.
However, I have one big question, and that is "why?". From what I read on this site, in general, magick is the manifestation and control of our own energy, so why would, for example, enochian magick be more powerful than a normal spell that you do using your own words (which -please correct me if I'm wrong- makes a spell stronger).
I am tempted to start practicing it at one point, however before all that, I need to go deeper into meditating (I've been meditating daily for the past 4 years, but I still feel I don't reach the perfect state of relaxation) and into the magick basics themselves.
I came about magick from a very ignorant purpose, knowing if there is indeed an afterlife (seeing how I'm having trouble believing in a higher power nowadays), but then I understood that magick is a lot more than that, it's more about our own peace than what happens after we die.
I tried calling my guardian angel, by meditation, I envisioned my aura (golden, as I read here is the best in this case) and I asked it to touch my aura. Nothing happened, so I thought maybe it was too soon, so I just asked for his/her name, but nothing happened again.
The thing is, some nights (like last night) I feel a presence in the house, and I fear it sometimes. Last night I was afraid, I tried asking for Archangel Michael's help, nothing happened. I went to sleep after meditating and removing as much of my fear as I could.
While I might be misunderstood, I just want to be able to find my faith and my inner peace. That's how I came about enochian magick.
Apart from the big question, "why?", I have a couple more, such as:
How do you know if the being that is showing itself to you is a demon or an angel? I've read about asking it to shake your hand, but I guess a powerful spirit or a demon would be able to do just that.
How do you protect yourself against the summoned beings? I've read about circles of protection, however none that I found seemed to work for me (I tried doing them, but I could not feel the energy)
What are, basically, the dangers of enochian magick? (They are rarely described in books, as those who wrote the books like this type of magick, they don't detail too much what happens if something goes south)
I feel like I am rushing things, because not even small spells seem to be working for me, so if anyone can please, give me any advice, on how to cultivate my energy better, how to go into a deeper state of meditation (I tried bineural beats, focusing on my breathing, relaxing my body part by part until I cannot feel it anymore, envisioning a warm light relaxing me, and more, none of which brought me deeper than the point of not feeling my body and having almost-minimal thoughts)
I am sorry for such a long post!
Thank you in advance for your time!