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Hi, this was hard to talk about and put out there but I'm finally doing it. So, my entire like I've always been a bit of a crier/ very emotional person. I've always let things get to me and never NOT shedded a tear. Been bullied most of my life and still held grudges, and always think about what people did/said. This resulted into making me not confident and feel "crappy", and sometimes a debby downer. Always living in fear I didn't get to experience a lot of things like short and cute outfits because thoughts of not appearing attractive in them got to me.

Not only that but me crying and being an emotional person, has pushed me further away from my family. I don't really get invited over their houses like I use to and I miss the fun times we had. They think I'm weak, and I believe it too. Being a woose had gotten me into a few altercations with some family members too. (Anger problems which stems off of the past and everything ) .

I really don't want to use any spells to force them into being close with me again or anything even though I still want them back, like it use to be. I'm like a walking disaster. But I've always felt left out of things and the loser of the pack. Not only family but friends, and in life. I feel like I'm always ruining everything even though I don't, or don't think. I'm a quiet person but love making people laugh, smile, and generally happy. I wantpeople to enjoy my company.

I always cry, and I want to be stronger. I want to be confident. I want people to love having me around. My aunt even recommended therapy but with what money? I don't really know what to do so please help. You all have a blessed day.

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