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Hello, I wanted to share my story. This is going to be a long one, Over the Years I Have personally learned from my Actions and Hopefully help others who have crossed paths with this (fallen) Arch Angel.

When I was 17, I was Addicted to Dark magic. It worked for me far too well. I lived at the time In a Semi-abusive home due to my mother always filling a void with TOXIC men. I was raised "Christian" which always had flaws to me personally. Now moving on from that note, I used the aggression and pain that came with my unconscious following of my Mothers footsteps to my advantage. The feeling of needing a man to solve my problems.

I was in a lot of abusive relationships that lead me down a path of self hate. I ended up moving back into my moms house. After she divorced the man who DESPISED ME. which caused her to choose between me or him. That of course ended up being him. I had met many witches who influenced my magic and downward spiral into the abyss in which dark magic lay. I had completely devoted my entire 16th and 17th year of life for this longing for dramatic change.

one night after once again being used as a house maid and money maker, I had reached a point of exhaustion. I had neighbors who adored me and knew my situation, and on my 17th birthday gave me a large box of Booz in which I snuck into my room and hid in my closet. During that night I visited a friend who lived a few doors away as we both shared the same birthday. I didnt stay long as everyone there was suffocating me with unmatched energies that made me uncomfortable.

as I left I came across a black cat with eyes of gold meowing at me asking me to follow.
I hesitated as I felt a strong dark present in the air. quickly returning to my room. as I sat I heard my moms boyfriend talking about how Inconsiderate I was for not cooking them dinner.
I finally sat and plugged in my headphones and sat in front of my mirror and started crying uncontrollably. Using mirror magic I started begging Lucifer or someone to please Love me or do something!!

At that moment pictures flew off the walls at my mom and her boyfriend. which encouraged them to suddenly come into my room Screaming at me about how I let a demon into their house, they quickly took my Ouija bored and threw it in the dumpster. this was the start of the problem. by the time everyone was asleep I had decided to attempt to end my life. I took a whole bottle of our sleeping pills, and chugged as much whiskey as I could. Sadly or happily whichever seems to fit, I woke up the next day laying on my floor with a sever stomach ache. I was angry but I continued my day as if nothing happened.

that night, I joined a video group chat on a site for people with similar interest, and met a guy named Swan. (this is not his real name) just an alias. we started dating and one night he video called me, He was under the influence of a bad drug. He suddenly stared at me and said these words. "You asked for me, and here I am". Sitting there bewildered, I asked what he meant and it suddenly hit me.
Like a train, it shot fear up and down my spine. He proclaimed to be an Arch Angel.

He said "He heard my cries". From then on things got Even worse.
Not only was he Abusive, But very Controlling. Where it started....
I met a girl at my friends Birthday and we exchanged numbers. she found out I was into Witchcraft from my friend. Which sparked her Interest in me. Suddenly she was hanging out with me daily. I brought up Crow after a few nights of doing Magic with her. I had told her about events that had happened which is where the Chaos really started.

She started showing up at my job and taking me for rides, Whispering to Her Friend who Claimed to be a vampire, and she a werewolf. just under the ability of my hearing. I started feeling uneasy around her. as if a shift in the way she treated me. suddenly one night we were hanging out, and she looked me in the eyes and Called me "Lilith". which at the time I had no idea who that was. as I had only really started witch craft a year ago and was basically just getting my feet wet.

anyways long story short they tried killing me, Drugging me aka Date -ape(cencored) drugs and other things.
I'm still alive so it didnt work. she also was begging the "vampire" to kill me during the drives to the mountain and wanting to go walking around the mountain in the pitch black with them. luckily my instincts were not to get out of the car, and they ended up taking me home every time.

back to Swan, After I had told him about it he wanted me to stop hanging out with her. which I tried. she would show up and my parents would LET HER IN. after the Kidnapping my parents were still allowing her around me after the POLICE told them to just ignore her and not let her around me since >>she had done this to other people.<<

anyways push came to shove, we ended up in her car because she said she was going to take me to him. to meet him. its really complicated on how this came to be so ill just explain I really didnt have a backbone. I was scared. I had no real guidance and both Swan and her were Putting me through this never ending tunnel of making me feel ashamed and embarrassed for who I was or WHO they claimed I was. to SWAN I was his phoenix, and to Her I was Lilith.

the world felt unreal and I was Spiraling into this Mystical Realm of Make believe. people using my emotions against me and I was Truly lost. Swan was cheating on me. he would disappear for days and never respond to texts till 3 or 4 days later. he moved in with his "cousin or aunt". who lived 6 hours away from me. which lead up to me Riding with her to show up Unannounced at his "job".

in the end after he found out I was still talking to this girl(the WW) he Despised and deliberately told me not to talk to.. he put his hands on me and told me he owned me<<. Demanded all these things from me so he could show me "his true power" and I left him out in the cold. after i got in the car i just wept the entire ride home... *I dont want pity.* I have moved so Far from that stage in my life, and it took years to actually grow a back bone. After everything that happened I had a Nasty taste in my mouth.

the message here is you reap what you sow. Asking for a demon of lucifer, is not advised. Demons can take over bodies when they are under influences. they manipulate and play with peoples emotions and feelings. they dont actually care. nor do they want a relationship. YOU ARE just a toy.
In the end, The demon that I summoned effected a family member who had the same name as that girl(WW), which he told me he was going to kill<<. my Aunt killed herself.
the next night I dreamt about him showing up covered in blood saying "look what you made me do".

I have carried that guilt. I feel my choices effected the people that I love around me. the person who was going through so much ended her life and I blame myself, because I feel as if he possessed her. during her lowest moment and encouraged her to take her life. the night she died I was gonna call her, but I said ill do it tomorrow... That was a mistake. she came to me in a dream in all white. but I still blame myself. I let reality get distorted with toxicity that is in the dark art.

Maybe its different for you. I just thought I would share my experience. hopefully to discourage messing with these entities. it still haunts me. I haven't touched dark magic since. yes I do miss my board. yes I do miss some of the feeling of the Chaos. (due to the power high). but I dont miss the mind F--- that was taking control of my life.

there is a lot more to the story but its A lot of explaining. so much happened. I never in a million years thought I would experience something that Insane. theres a whole part of someone else unrelated who was a witch and told me I was Lilith also. saying I was gonna end the world. thats a lot of pressure on a 17 year old. I felt so Pathetic. I wish I had met someone to guide me. but instead I met nothing but Deceivers.

Please stay safe and choose white. Love you.