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I am new here. I work with a Wiccan which caused me to do some research. I am in need of a cleansing, I think. I've recently went through a breakup where we both thought we were soulmates. Then, out of the blue, she ignores me. I feel she still loves me, and I wish for the love to return. It's been very difficult on me, and negative energy is pouring out of me. I'm afraid if I do a cleansing spell on myself with all of this negative energy, the spell might backfire in a very bad way. I'm hanging on by a thin thread.