first take a few seconds to become aware
of yourself and your surroundings. Feel
yourself as a living, thinking animal,
and feel the world around you. Then take
a second to clearly and definitely affirm
your purpose-- say to yourself:
"l will now perform the ritual exercise
of the Qabalistic Cross, in order to
achieve a state of balanced centered
selfhood.".
Raise your hand and eyes, and
feel/see a sphere of white
light begin to blossom
above your head. Hold in
your mind your ideas about
THAT WHICH IS DIVINE. Pray to your
God/dess to breathe its divine spark into
your life. Feel it coming--an infinitely
tiny point of light, infinitely bright--
from the most secret heights of space, at
infinite speed, and as it strikes the
sphere above your head and bursts into
white radiance, say "ATOH." Unto Thee.
This is for you. Toward the Divine
Thing we live our lives.
Draw down your hand. A column of
white fire moves through your body,
striking the perfectly black sphere be-
neath your feet. This sphere is the metal
and rock of the earth itself, and it is
Gaia, the three billion year old bio-film
that coats this huge spinning ball. This black
ball of energy is the atom, matter, time
and space, the real world where we live
and die. This sphere is our inheritance
and our sanctuary. Feel all this, and
thank the sphere, and say "MALKUS."
The kingdom. The spark of light streaks
down from the sphere beneath you, infi-
nilely fast, and echoes off of the begin-
ning of time. The spark returns to the
sphere carrying wisdom from the past.
You have claimed your kingdom.
Raise your hand to the center of your
chest, and draw it across to touch your
fight shoulder. A hot globe of red light
forms there. Everything that makes you
powerful is burning in that red light. It
is your mental and physical musculature,
your power to manipulate ideas, and your
ability to walk, talk, and handle objects
in the material world. That red light is
your power to say no to your mother and
father, your power to be a separate,
distinct individual. This sphere on your
right shoulder is your ability to weed
gardens, to criticize your own writing,
to choose the path with heart. Feel the
limitless strength stored in your body
and mind, and say "VE GEBURAH." The
Power. Your power shoots out of that red
sphere cutting a fine line to the right
edge of the universe, gathering all the
power in the world with it as it re-enters
the sphere.
Draw your hand across your body and
touch your left shoulder. A bar of light
follows your hand, and enters a cool
blue globe shimmering there. As the
blue light brightens, think about your
ability to sense the world. Light enters
the lens of the eye, vibration touches
the eardrum, and wonder of wonders, we
see, we hear! Think of how amazing the
world is, how astonishing it is just to
be here, and how wonderful it is to be
able to think, to feel, to dream.
This blue light is your ability to re-
ceive the world, to receive inspiration;
to understand the world and to dream of
MAGICAL BLEND--A Transformative Journey
working your artistic will in the world.
While the red sphere was your power,
this blue sphere is your Authority, based
on self-knowledge, which governs your
use of power and makes it righteous.
Hold on to your precious wonder about
the world, and say "VE GEDULAH." The
Glory. Again a line of light leaps from
the sphere, flashing to your left until it
disappears, then returning.
For a second, everything is poised.
Four spheres of light blaze in your body--
above you, below you, to your right, to
your left. Each contains a force, a do
main of your life which you must master
if you am to be whole. Feel each of
them, and feel their power grow as they
burn brighter and brighter.
Suddenly, four lances of light spear
toward the point on your chest where the
vertical and horizontal lines intersect. A
spinning golden flower appears there,
fed by the forces from the other spheres,
yet somehow controlling those forces
and weaving them together into one tire-
giving light. Invoke your Higher Self,
your Holy Guardian Angel, your Genius.
Visualize the sun flaming in the sky, the
fusing hall of hydrogen that is the gravi-
tational and energetic center of our solar
system. Feel the fusing ball of solar
power in your chest, your essence, the
center of everything which is you. With
the Light of the sun to guide you, and
with the power of your genius at hand,
you stand on the crossroads of life, capa-
ble of moving in any direction freely.
You stand in the footsteps of every
great, striving human before you. You
have taken your rightful responsibilities
into your hands. Fulfill your heritage.
Cross your hands across your chest,
hugging your specialness to yourself.
Say "Le-'OLAM, AMEN." Unto the
Ages, Amen. I accept. I am a Human Be-
ing, and I accept your bodhisattva bar-
gain. I will reincarnate my genius, make
it real in the world, learn what I can, and
help every other part of me, everything
else that exists, to learn also.
Uncross your arms and return. Look
at the world, the people and things
around you. Come out of the internal re-
ality of the ritual and occupy your ex-
tornal reality. Be present. Wake up. Ob-
serve yourself observing yourself, if you
can, but above all, be present and carry
on. The whole point of the ritual is to
balance oneself, to become clear and
centered. Tarrying in the sacred state can
disrupt the delicate instrument you have
constructed.
As you practice the ritual, you will
realize that I have left out many details
in the sketchy blueprint above. The
exercise itself will stimulate insights.
It's exciting to discover the intricate
web of interlocking levels of symbolism
and physical reality contained in the
ritual. While the Qabalistic Cross is one
of the simplest of hermetic practices, in
its way it is one of the most complete.
Invoke often.