Hello,
I'm new here! Lately I've been feeling drained and full of fear. At first I thought it would just go away but it hasn't. It started a couple months ago over the summer. Usually I'm a happy outgoing person with a positive outlook on stuff but nowadays I've just isolated myself and do stuff by myself. I'm not depressed, I don't harm myself. I've also been having nightmares of myself getting hurt and other terrible things. For the last couple years, people in my family have been dying, from aunt committing suicide,(two more suicides) and recently my grandfather passing away. I don't know what the causes of this could be. Another question, I received a gift from someone I loved and our relationship ended but I still wear it. Right now I don't think we are on good terms. Can this gift be a link that diverts their negative energy towards me? I've taken it off. Anyways, please tell me your thoughts or suggestions!!
I don't think it's the gift, first off. Nothing can divert anything without the intent being there, generally speaking. As far as nightmares and bad feelings, it sounds like you're in a rough place, mentally. Loss and death are always hard on you, but something about suicide absolutely shakes us to the core. I honestly recommend you try and get some counseling done, and maybe a mental health exam. I don't think you're crazy in the slightest, but it sounds like you're going through some mild depression, in my opinion. It doesn't always materialize as sadness; it can take many forms, from paranoia and fatigue to self-isolation and nightmares. Luck and light to you, Annadell. I hope everything works out for you.
Thank you for taking your time and reading my post. I never actually looked at it in that way.The three people in my family that did commit suicide, i knew them when i was younger but I wasn't that close. But maybe it is affecting me unconsciously and I dont know it. I will try and seek out some help like counseling. The mental health exam? I don't know if my problems are that deep but I will see what the professional says.
You're more than welcome. Death, especially suicide, affects us for more reasons than just because we lost someone close to us. In a twist of fate, somebody I work with announced today that he has stage four cancer nearly all over his body. It reminds us of our own mortality in a very deep way.
