Greetings, thank you for paying attention to my worries, here goes the story:
In spring break 2022 my grandmother died from cancer. I am christian and I felt so much peace and joy when she passed away and left all the family issues and body pain behind, it was 5:05 pm (I could swear) and I went to her house to say goodbye, she used to live with an aunt and her family just 2 houses front of my own house. I couldn´t bare the pain of my family, I was worried for them, not for the inmortal soul of my grandmother. I felt something broke inside me, that I will miss her and I will some day forget about her voice and presence, yet something strange happened 3 days before her death. The whole family and even family friends had, the same night, a dream where she manifested somehow and said goodbye, but not with me.
I had sleep paralysis that night, and I was so happy, because I was seeking to have something like that for a while, back then. I have a pug, and at first I thought she was under my bed, because I fell asleep hearing music and looking at my phone in a weird position, as if I was checking my armpit odor or just skratching my ear with my elbow, Lol. The thing is that I realized I was in paralisis and I heard scratches on the wall just at the bottom of my bed, and I looked straight at my closet and mentally asked "Is anybody there?" To which a growl answered occasionally. It was a deep grolw of a woman, and It didn´t do much more than that.
Years later, this monday 5 of August 2024, I had a dream in which at my university I was mocking the fact that someone could die and stay stranded in my University. A loud scream of hate and agony yelled at me waying "Shut up", "I hate you", and some curses. Then I kinda kept it up and the screams just seem to get louder or closer, up to the point I heard "Do you want to die?" and the rest of phrases but in such a hateful scream, like when someone screams and you cant´recognize gender, that type of hate scream. I woke up, and today 8 of August 2024 I´m gonna stand right where in my dream I met that entity and just be aware of it if I can concentrate and percieve whatever comes to me and a friend who is in on this.
I just want to know if someone knows why I didnt ´t see my grandmother, and why do I get suddenly invaded by these entities when (and as you could´ve guesses) I am a very joyful person who is not afraid of experiences. Also to share my story, I´ll update later today when I do my investigation and talk about it right here. Yet, if I could read someone´s comment, opinon, warning, point, argument, etc; i would be very gratefull.
I don't know if there's much of an answer to the first part of your post, it could just be regular sleep paralysis kind of stuff, not literally a "hallucination" but that time between asleep and awake where your brain kind of mis-registers stuff. I've only ever had it once in my existence thus far and it matches what you described, so that makes me think the first part and the growling was just sleep paralysis since even the sounds you described matched up with what I had heard all those years ago. Now in terms of your dream, it kind of just sounds like inter-personal stuff not really supernatural or whatever you personally call that type of activity. But importantly , the last part where you mentioned "I just want to know if someone knows why I didnt ?t see my grandmother, and why do I get suddenly invaded by these entities..." Spirits like that typically show up or attempt to show up when someone is at a low point in their existence, and I don't mean a time of weakness, its a time of "energetic sensitivity" the whole idea of "when we are at our lowest point we are open to the greatest (positive) change" so it could be that your just more subconsciously aware caused by grief kind of thing. Now why didn't you see your granmother, while if you want a christian answer since that's your faith. In Christianity (generally speaking as different denominations have their own "version" lets say) the idea is that when your loved ones die they go to heaven meaning their souls are not wandering the spirit world kind of thing, so anyone who does see their mother or father, or grandmother or aunt, or uncle, etc as a spirit in the context of Christianity, its believed that this is in fact a "demon" pretending to be your loved one because , "well, my so and so is in heaven , so this must be a demon impersonating them", so in a christian context they consider it "good" to not see their loved ones spirits because there in "heaven".
Please understand I mean no inherent disrespect for putting a lot in quotation marks for a lot of christian terms, it's just that's not my thing, but I don't like the idea of ignorance in my witchcraft so I do study other believes, for lack of a better term. I have other information from a chrisitan perspective on this kind of thing if you'd be interested as I believe one can understand something just for knowledge sake even if they'll never use that thing in their own practice. I hope this was even a little bit useful to you.
