1: I have been having aches and pains but I thought it was just anxiety [I have an anxiety disorder] or growing pains [Im only 12]
2: yes I have been feeling sadness and feelings that my life has nothing special in it. Like im really bored with life. Which causes sadness within me.
3. no I havnt really,
4. I dont have a job,
5. Kind of but actually not really, its my friendships that are like this.
6. For a week I have been waking up at 2:26 or just like 10 seconds before it,
7. no my dreams have been ridiculous, like lately I have been having a lot of dreams about being pregnant, kinda funny. But they were serious dreams. Also i've been having dreams about cats and giant buildings.
8. Somtimes I get something similiar to a dizzy moment where I feel like I just went somewhere else and came back. out of nowhere
9. kind of not really though. I usually will repeat a a thought in one sentence in some sort of a song like for example;
I wonder why he did that
it would be like
"I wonder why he did that.
I wonder how he did that.
I wonder where he did that."
with almost a rhythmic kind of tone.
and I never notice I do it unless someone tells me I am.
I have done this almost all my life
10. A LOT. Yes I cant be in big groups anymore.
When im in school, I cant stand it lately. When im in public places my heart beats faster and I dont like it.
11. I have been unmotivated lately.
12. Yes sometimes I feel this I feel like that I dont wanna be on this planet anymore It doesnt feel like home here. It doesnt feel right,
What am I going through?
Is this just depression or a spiritual awakening?
and also how long can spiritual awakening last?
sadly, even if you have felt the above symptoms, if you arent actually working daily to be more and help others, then all you are doing is allowing your body to feel this way while your soul battles to awaken. many people have these moments and then continue with their pointless lives, if ever any of these symptoms are felt, it is your soul telling you it wants to awaken, and if you do nothing about it, then these symptoms wont pass they will follow you around till you die. something which should be an amazing experience, becomes your own daily torture.
I've experienced all twelve, but these are also signs of depression.
1)Body aches and pains tend to be more common while experiencing negative emotions (such as depression),
2)When you're depressed you usually feel sad. That's a big part of depression.
3)Crying happens for many people when they are sad and when you are depressed the cause is the same as for being sad; it's a chemical imbalance in the brain.
4)Depends on the cause. If you just happen to get offered a better job then that's a good thing, but many people who fall into to deep of a depression may quit their jobs or screw up and get fired.
5)Another big sign of depression, depressed people(usually, but not always) want to be alone or at least separate from the people they know.
6)As mentioned before, depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain; that can also mess up your internal clock and sleeping routine/schedule. In some cases you don't sleep at all, in some cases you sleep all the time.
7)Normally dreams like that (during depression, not just in general) symbolize the "inner conflict" going on in your brain as the chemical imbalance struggles to be normalized. For me it was the burning of a city I had built in a game of mine.
8)Again, depression is a chemical imbalance and that imbalance can cause problems with the brain's normal functions. In this case, orienting yourself can be affected as well.
9)Talking to yourself can help you focus on yourself and the mind usually uses this as a form of escape. Some people talk to objects rather then just themselves; for me it was "silent Bob", my deer skull that never replies to what I say.
10)Depression normally causes feeling lonely, as does separating yourself from family and friends.
11)This is yet another sign of depression and a large part of the reason for number four, the depressed person may not feel like doing the job they are supposed to do and so they either don't do it well enough or they just quit and give up.
12)With depression this can lead to suicide, but not always. Obviously it doesn't go that far with everyone, but many people do have thoughts of suicide during a deep depression.
The point in my last post was not to disqualify what was said here, it was to say that just because you have experienced all twelve signs it doesn't mean you have actually Spiritually Awakened.
