Send back what has come to you, if anything has, if not then you will need to meditate and try to really thing about good things that will happen to you!!
Well, to make a long story short, I was born to two alcoholic parents, one of whom was verbally and at times, physically, abusive and the other one who deserted his children. As young children, our mother subjected us to very dangerous situations in which we might have been killed, some so painful that my oldest sister is too afraid to speak of them and will live her life in denial about what has happened to her. When I was growing up, I was always the maltreated one in our family, no matter what I did to please everyone and make them happy. They abused me verbally, emotionally, psychologically, and mentally until I threatened to kill myself on several occasions. As I grew up, I figured life would get better but it only got worse, with a slight respite in there for a couple of years when I believed myself to be "saved and filled with the Holy Spirit." Several miraculous things happened then, but none strong enough to exhaust or expire the demonic spirits that had chided me all of my life as a child. To this day, I am blocked on all sides--cannot get a decent job, cannot continue my education, have four sons-three of whom all have lives almost as bad as mine--and I cannot get ahead to save my life. Every time I start thinking I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, all hell breaks loose again. It's like being on the front lines of a war 24/7 with no let up, even when I try to sleep at night--I am not without nightmares and nasty events even when I close my eyes at night. I am at the point at last where I expect nothing but nightmares every time I so much as close my eyes to take a nap. I am asking myself now why I am here taking up space when my life has no use, no purpose, and is on a downward spiral from a track that landed at rock bottom a long time ago. Every time I put my hands on something now I get this eerie feeling that it's all going to be taken away, and it happens. Before I started "expecting" it, I expected and prayed only for good and yet no matter what I believed, bad things kept happening anyway.
ok I have one solution for you, but it involves reading, believing and doing!!
I recomend this book to those who really want to change their mental thinking and really want to just do well in life!!
The book is called 'the secret'
I have read it and found it truly exhilarating at all levels!!
Also I have noticed that those who are gifted have been through some sort of trauma, bad luck, bad up brining etc etc, 'we all have in some sort of way or another' I feel that it is then taht those who are stronger, find the way to wanting a better life that they have, so they seek out that better life!!
I had other ways to help but others may not see my point of view so if you are interested plz message me
I agree with ValerieR. Read the SECRET. You can also find it in movie form. Another movie that will explain everything is call WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW. It explains that when you expect something or think about these bad things you are actually attracting them to you.
However, if you feel that it is curse, here is something to try. The Line spell. You will need a fresh lime and 13 pins, needles and/or sharp nails.
When the moon is waning, light a purple candle and then, at your altar in the center of a clockwise cast circle, stick the 13 pins, needles, or nails into the lime. Each time you insert olne repeat this incantation:
To break a curse, this lime I pierce,
I now reverse a spell so fierce,
Magick of black, I send thee back!
Evil spell, returneth to hell!
By power of bewitchment spoken,
By power of my will, be broken!
So mote it be!
Now bury the lime in a deep hole at least 3 miles from your home. Take you athame in our power hand and with the tip of the blade, trace the Banishing Pentagram in the air above the spot where the lime is buried.
The evil will begin to unravel as the lime begins to decay.
i never liked the secret....it always seemed like hunky dory bs to me, it just seems like more new age bs....they act like all you have to do is wish real hard and then your life will cease to suck, thats BS in my book, if you want something, you have to work for it. i also hate that they call it the law of attraction, it makes it sound like a scientific law, when it is in fact not.
renee, try cleansing EVERYTHING, your body, your car, your house, your family, your work, your parents house, EVERYTHING, then work on a spell to reverse the curse, if that dont work, try two spells, one to banish bad luck, and one to pull in good luck.....using a staff, and pulling energy from a rainstorm (lightning) to fuel a good luck spell....its quite a rush.
Good tips luzifer, about the secret I guess that book, reaches to some ppl more than others and thats cool, but I am a believer in firm self believe, thats where our magick comes from anyhow!!
Every one here has given you good tips. Believing in your self is very important. so is loving yourself. If u don't love you, nobody else will. I've been in your shoes(seems I've worn a lot of peoples shoes, lol. Its a wonder I don't have foot fungus!) I was raised in a Xtian cult(jim jones type.only way I know to discribe.) I too was the scapegoat of my family. Lost track of how many preachers they dragged me to to get "the Devil cast out of me." (Hey did you know the devil is blue. Have it on good authority.)Din't work tho. That ole big blue devil always came back, lol.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
It takes work, but you can get past this. As for being cursed, a lot of people think they are. but a lot of the time, they are recieving life lessons. If my earlier trials hadn't happened and I hadn't developed the strengh and endurance that they gave me, I wouldn't have survived other worse things down the road.( and yes their are worse things, like losing a child)
I used to think maybe I'd done something really bad in a previous life to deserve the things that happened to me, but then I came to realize If I could go back and change what happened I wouldn't. These things are the things that made me, ME. sometimes Its not a curse, or even karma. Sometimes its just things you need to learn. Maybe some people need a stronger kick in the pants in order to learn the life lessons we need. I know I probably wouldn't have found wicca, if my life had been sunshine n roses.
CM
that is a fair point and I agree with what you are saying!!
Things happen for a reason (yes we do think, 'why us') but again I too wouldn't change mylife as this is who I am I have found my true calling and destiny!!
