If you want to do anything to bring her back, or try to at least mend things between the two of you, you're going to need to work on feeling better, first. Any kind of magic you do is going to be heavily weighed down by these negative feelings you're having.
If she's seeing someone else, you'd have to effectively try to break them up before you bring her back. There are ways to do both of those things, but they are hard work, they take a lot of time, and if you are feeling suicidal, you need medical help, not magic.
Try to calm down, breathe, and come back around when you feel stronger and not so defeated. Be strong.
I am going to be completely honest with you and here it is.
If you think your suffering, miserable and lonely now your in for a huge nasty surprise. Forcing anyone to go against their free will is not only wrong but (in my own personal opinion) a person that does such a thing deserve every single bad nasty thing this great universe of our gives them. I'm only warning you so you will be prepared and expecting it when "It Hits The Fan"
You could try some form of therapy first. Don't do drugs. Get a hobby. Don't be a slut or date a bunch if people. Give yourself time to heal. I'd say give it a year of no sex or dating, focus on the life you have with your son, find a hobby, be grateful for the things you have and have had. I wouldn't conjure up anything if u were you, especially since you're in such an emotional state. Do some purifications and cleansings, maybe meditate. Get some therapy, whether it's talking to a friend or family member, group therapy, or seeing a psychiatrist. And don't hurt yourself or others. Also, if you need to use magick to get her back, you don't need her and she wasn't for you and she is definitely not yours. What she did was wrong, but forcing her into a relationship is also wrong. She wouldn't be happy and an unhappy couple is not the best environment for your son. Think if him. And spend time with him and some friends. You can pull through this. You're stronger than you think.
Take a good hard look at yourself. Why were there issues? What do you really want in life? Would being together really make you happy? Would they be happy?
People split for a reason. It hurts but sometimes it is for the best. If you meditate on things, perhaps you will find a lesson in this.
If you insist on being together with her regardless of what she wants, that is not really love.
Should you choose to force her hand regardless, check out bindings.
As wretched as I feel, if there is more to come so be it.
I'm not applying wicca , I don't know much but willing to use the hoodoo magik that does not have the law of 3.
Can I ask you this, I was told of a curse on my part and what if I lost her due to that ?
At times a man must just put his dice in and if he loses so be it.
I'm not going to kill myself I'm much better just have odd bad days now.
If you think it is due to a curse, try cleansing yourself. This can be done in many ways.
Light some sage in a burn proof container and swirl the smoke around you, visualizing a more peaceful state of being.
Take a shower or bath with sea salt and visualize said curse pulling out of you (like muddy or brackish fluid) and running down the drain.
Work on shielding. Many people see this as only a method of pushing away oncoming negative energies. However I have found it very helpful for problems that are already there. Meditate and visualize yourself being surrounded in bright white or gold light. While doing this, picture the "curse" and any other unwanted energy being transmuted in the light.
Sandalwood, frankincense and bay are said to dissipate curses when burned.
Regardless, I think focusing on other things would be your best option in the whole situation. It really does suck when we lose people we love or care for. But focusing on the negative of this only breeds more negative. Do things that make you happy. Meditate to help calm. Work on things to better yourself. It could help bring her back, or even bring someone else into your life. Blessings to you, in all your endeavors :)
