Hi i have gone by Akaro for years now so you can call me by that.
now i got a situation and im not sure if i should be worried or not. If you can help please bear with me ill try to make the story as brief as possible.
when i was little i had major problems with a particular demon attempting to control me(always the same one) it seemed to live in me.well as i grew older i became interested in all types of magic after finding random books and started practicing. The demon got very violent when the day came that i tried to banish it from myself. i thought i succeeded....i remember i blacked out and i remember seeing its face locked behind a mirror of smoke. when i woke up though i felt half empty. its been about three years since that day and as time passed i found that my energy was more and more demonic ....like i am the demon... my aura switches between the normal green and blue to black constantly. if it is me i willing to accept it for i have control but im worried that this might be a bad sign.
please help i always tried public forms (yahoo answers..etc) and all i got was criticism on how im crazy...i know im not crazy thats why im here.
it may not be a demon just an iner self that you dont quite know how to deal with my advice would be to make contact and agree a compranise meny ppl have what thay see as a split personality two souls trying to controle one body if you put your mind to it you can make one of them go or live with the two its up to you if it is more than that DO NOT TRY TO USE MAGIC TO RID YOURSELF OF IT AS YOU CAN DO MORE DAMAGE TO YOUR MIND THAN WOULD BE GOOD FOR YOU hope it helps
I can be some help here at least although if it's origins are truly magical then I can't help particularly, do you ever blank out and awake somewhere else, find strange handwriting in your house, or other signs of someone else being around, or have sort of day dreams of doing things to then found you have done them? If not then it is not a split personality, whilst unlikely, it is possible to still be a number of psychological disorders but unless there are moments where you do literally become a different person it is not true DID, that said it is still possible to have two sides of the same person usually caused by stress, which is what I believe SpiritChild to have been referring to as she said many people although very few people develop an actual split personality it is true that many people can suddenly snap to give a different personality, with perhaps increased aggression for example, a patient with DID has a completely separate person within them. It’s important to remember that the human mind is incredibly complex and many things are possible, but I’d be interested to know if you’ve been under a lot of work recently or having any social difficulties (that doesn’t mean a lack of friends it just means a complication in your life that isn’t related to your wellbeing)
i really thank you for the help.the information clears some of the gap of knowledge.
No i dont black out...its not the medical definition.
its more of my thoughts and emotions switch from one extreme to another....ive been afraid to let the two join.... now i considered the deal with the duel halfs but is what does it mean if one side feels like a demon while the other is focused around the art of true energy manipulation. at first i thought there was just the dark emotions but i met a strange spirit
(he was a necromancer of demons) and he had strange control over me that i had to actually work at resisting....
also how would i go about combining the two halfs which are obviously so far apart in comparison.
I don't know how you would combine the two half but if i were you I'd just try trying to relax for a bit with some friends and see what happens because as i said sometimes symptoms which you have described can be caused by social issues or stress, if nothing changes then i would say that possibly the two sides might combine naturally, considering that you obviously arent upset about the thought of them combining then perhaps its allready started a slow prossess of combining, just a thought is all im not 100% sure
