I've been trying to find a simple answer to this question, but there are many things that I find that are just off with a lot of things. For example, many normal people find comfort in seeing other human faces, however I do not. This is aside from a lot of other feeling I get towards... "Other humans", as I often put it (irresponsible, imbeciles, inconsiderate, incompetent... etc.)
Now, don't take this the wrong way, those are general feelings as I go out and do my daily deeds (work, groceries, other chores). However, if I am something else, I have a nagging feeling that, as a kid, I may have accidentally locked away my abilities from my childhood fear of it. But doing so or not, it doesn't really give me an answer to "what". I have asked my spirit if she knows, but unfortunately does not either (been with me after the whole conundrum sprouted).
Abilities or not, there are a quite a few who have picked up on this (and in one account frightened an entire school). So basically what I am looking for is closure for my chapter really. Not that I want to completely get rid of any existence of being anything other than human (If I am), I would rather embrace it and be able to use the abilities (if any) than to kick it to the curb and ignore what I really am.
ninchaku just because you think humans are 'irresponsible, imbeciles, inconsiderate, incompetent... etc.' doesn't mean you're not human. (Because you most certainly are)
I personally believe that people are irresponsible, imbeciles, inconsiderate, incompetent and many more things as well.
I don't get along with very many people and I enjoy being cut off from society and everything it has to offer from time to time.
But I am and as are you human.
You are human. Not all of us like or wish to be around the rest of the human race. Some days I myself feel like burning down the whole of humanity would be a favor to us all, that said, I'm still a human. ;)
The thing is, no one ever said you have to like anyone, because of that we are allowed to dislike everyone. Doesn't make you any less human, just a human with a different idea towards humanity as a whole.
If you get to know a few people you will realize there are some like minded individuals out there (hermits and monks would be a good example as they limit human contact for various reasons). You may also find that not all of humanity is as terrible as you believe, and you may come to like and enjoy the presence of a few individuals.
Spirit is spirit, not human nor "something else". There is only low to high and all the ones in the middle. The majority of the human race is very low on the totem pole. They have not nor will not look within and find the deep connection between themselves and all of life. It's common when being a little higher on the ladder to want to look down upon those that are not at "your level". This is our subconscious and our shadow side arrogance and egotism peaking through. But you'll never reach a higher state of being if you do not find love and respect for all of life. Because regardless of where you are on the ladder, the ladder is the whole, and you're a part, and all of it is connected and should be honored as LIFE. The tiny honey bee is just as important as you, if not more so. Just because the honey bee doesn't ponder the mysteries of the universe doesn't make it's existence less valuable.
Yeah people are jerks. Whatever you are, you're apparently stuck here on earth with the rest of us so its better to learn to live with it. As for any abilities or powers, try meditation or hypnosis and maybe you'll remember. I have a friend who went through something similar with her natural psychic abilities and she was able to get them back.
I understand the feeling of human incompitence for there are lots of dumb humans in the world but insulting the species isn't cool man. It isn't hard to scare large groups btw all you need to do is play on fear and be different and it will scare most humans away. But you are most likely human yourself. I know what it is like to feel like your something else like a lot of the time I feel more like a wolf. This is most likely due to past lives. You could have been something else in a past life.
