So I’ve always been a kid drawn to magik, and it’s been a large part of my life for as long as I know. My grandmother was largely into it and she’s always told me I was a “gifted” child. If I was hurt or cut I would seem to heal in a matter of minutes, if I was cold the air around me would warm up, little magik stuff. Unlike what seems like a majority of the people on this site (not a diss or anything offending, just what I’ve seen and experienced) I really haven’t had that bad of a life and I believe that I am mentally stable, and if I can be real, I’m 15, I’m 15 and in college and I have a lot of friends irl. So I’m fairly well off. However my mom banned magik in my house so my grandma hasn’t taught me anything, so I’m going into this stuff kinda blind. And about a year ago I started to notice changes. My magik started to be more and more powerful and I started to not be able to really control it well, it started off small like if I was angry at someone they would mysteriously get gashes or scratches from what seemed to be nothing. And I started to Astro-travel every night without knowing it as well as lucid dreaming. And that was just the start, then I started to have dreams that were a little weird, not weird because of something in the dream but weird because they all started to come true, it started as little things like being able to know what someone would wear or what they would say, but now it’s gotten to the point that I know exactly step by step how my day will go and what people will do or say, and I can even see it from other people’s point of views. Its gotten so powerful I can see and talk to spirits everywhere and my magik has been nearly life saving, I’ve gotten to where anything I want kinda just happens. But like I’ve said it’s definitely started to impact those around me, here’s a more extreme example. A few days ago it was really hot in my room (I live in GA so it gets really hot) and so I wanted it to be cold, so I didn’t touch my thermostat and I was home alone but somehow my ac kicked on so powerful it broke, and this isn’t the only time something like that has happened, I’ve been able to do more in the last year than I ever thought was even possible, and I wasn’t a true believer, hell im still not, i was raised as a Christian so it’s so hard to have to come to terms that I’m somehow magikly inclined, but I just need help, I need to learn how to keep my powers in check and how to practice safely, please don’t take this as a joke or gag me, I’m being as serious and sincere as I possibly can. I really need help with just learning all about this stuff, I’ve tried to read on Wicca and Pagen religion and beliefs but I just can’t get the hang of this stuff, and it’s scaring me. If I don’t find out how to control my powers soon I may have to take action and try to find a way to tamper my powers down. This is just all too weird for me to handle alone and I can’t go to my parents because my mom thinks it’s just bull and my dad won’t believe me either, but they don’t understand what it’s like to live life knowing exactly what’s going to happen next. And the worse part is being able to read auras, I can tell a bad person from a good person without even talking to them, I can even identify their intentions, and that’s scary, I’ve seen people who i know went off to commit murders and hurt people and I don’t know what to do. Please help.
