So I have been fighting some entity that has been affecting me in a horrible way.
I didnt realize how mean and aggressive I have been acting until s week ago, when a sibling mentioned that Im not acting like the real me. I feel like the one meditation about a good two years ago started this.
I did an attempted astral projecting meditation. Instead of getting to the astral plane I was in some pitch black world. There was only one light, it was a red one. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked behind me. It was terrifying. Im not even kidding.
the entity was a tall guy in a dark grayish black hoodie and dark jeans. His face was pale blood was running out of his eyes and nose. His hoodie was covered in blood, looked like it was splattered.
All he said was Either you are going to do something or I will.
then I opened my eyes. The reason he said that was because at the time I was getting physically assaulted in school. I used to never stand up for myself or others. Now I have been told that I have been growing more angry, aggressive, cruel, unstable, and filthy mouthed. I have been told by many people.
I do have the feeling I am being observed and someone/something is listening to my thoughts, only when its just me in the room. I feel weird for sharing this but I hoped someone could help.
This is just my own thoughts and I hope they help. I don't know everything about your situation, but it sounds like the guy you are seeing is a part of you that is tired of dealing with the bullying. often our mind will start finding other ways to let us know there is really something going on that we need to pay attention to. You may really want to talk to someone about the bullying. Don't think that standing up for yourself is a bad thing, its how you stand up for yourself that matter and getting the help from people around you. If you have a family member saying you are not like yourself listen to them, they told you because they really care about you.
Feeling like someone is watching you is normal if you have been assaulted. I am saying all this from my personal experience. on my part I did have to see a therapist to help me overcome those feelings. I hope this helps, I know what it feels like.
It seems as that dream you had of the 'entity', it may actually be a form of your subconciouss. As he said "either you will do something or i will", may be referring to how tired you are of being beat down. Listen to your inner thoughts, your gut feelings, and don't ignore your feelings. Also, pay as much attention as possible to others around you. Such as, their facial expressions/body language after you speak. It will play a good role for realization.
Hope this helped!
(psychology is not my strong subject. Chemistry is, but I know someone in the field.)
With what I can gather from your details, it's sounds like someone who knows you personally...whom you may not know per say (old ancestors) whom feel a responsibility to protect you. I think they are doin so by influencing your phyche and implementing their own feelings in their. I think it's important to handle phsyic links a.s.a.p because they tend to manifest themselves in many other ways. Easiest way would be to reflect inside focusing on those feelings u have been having lately .... More then likely the source will reveal itself the closer you get to uncovering it.i hope this helps..I'm open to speak more!
