I hope this isn't too long of a story. So please, bare with me. I don't get on this website too much but just for the forums. Whenever I have an occult related problem I won't hesitate to rush here. So, on to the story.
I went to the mall with my best friend Sarah and her parents. Since she wants to lose weight and she is a very experienced face reader i'm basically her apprentice on that) She asked me if I wanted to walk around with her to burn off the coffee we just bought and to read people we like in certain stores. Note the coffee we bought it will be important later. Before we go on, Id like to note that I'm gay. So anyway, we went along to a store that's called [CCS] I sort of like that store for it's skater, like fashions.
So as we walked in I saw this certain guy. He was obviously a skater, he had stretched ears, a beautiful face, and the exact same haircut I had. So as I walked through the store with Sarah, Him and I would always exchange looks, flirtacious (msp)looks, He would smile, I would smile. I knew he obviously liked me and I obviously liked him. So, Over the course of the mall trip, I went to that certain store for him over 4 times. Then alas, we had to leave. I almost cried.
I know, I know. It sounds like the most ridiculous thing but This attraction was so different I can't explain it. I've been out with my share of guys but this was VERY VERY different. Something was drawing me to him. I gripped my kyanite necklace and left the mall. I cried in my friends car. Thank goddess because her parents are half deaf. I stopped quickly because my friend asked me why I was crying and I explained everything.
Another thing that was extremely strange is that, I felt energy drained. A terrible drain of energy that left me to the point where I thought I was going to die. I felt like falling to the floor and dying. Ugh, it was terrible. Other than that, I felt a terrible flash of negativity that even my most special crystal necklace couldn't seem to take it away as it usually does.
I went home and fell to the floor gasping for breath but all the way home, these visions of me and this guy being lustful. I don't want to mention everything). I't wasn't evil at all though. I loved the lustful attraction to this guy but what was weird is that it felt like HE was the one draining me. I just HAD to go back to him. I didn't care if he drained me. I just had to have him. I really love him and I don't know what's fueling it. Please help me because It's my birthday sunday and my parents promised me they would take me to the exact same mall today. I don't want to see him but at the same time I do.
~~Blessed Be~~
Alex Tucker )0(