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It all started back in April of this year when I went to visit my freind for a holiday in a beautiful seaside town called Newquay, one on the last day before I left we went into an occult shop where they had sold wands and other magikal items. And there I saw it my wand, a beautiful hand crafted mahogany wand with a saphire jeweled base and an opilite crystal at the top, and it just sang to me. So I bought it and felt I need to direct my energy with this, and then I felt maybe it's time I gave the craft a go. But my journey did not just begin here, but 20 years ago when I was a member of the church of England. I was born in the city of Brighton in the year 1989 and from age zero I was a member of my local church (St. Phillips), I was a very active member of the Sunday school when I was a child. I loved the story of the Bible and felt very strongly about what Jesus taught his disciples along his travels, the psalms were always my favourite book in the bible. One night when I was six years old I found myself having a conversation with god, but not just praying, actually talking to him with all of my heart. It was the most important conversation I had ever had and I asked god if it was possible to save the devil. To which he was surprised, he said "No man has ever asked me that before, usually people fear Lucifer and want to cast him down just as I did in the beginning, you are the first to have shown this much concern for him." I proposed to him that even though he is now the devil, he was once an angel just like the rest of your domain, and if something can be remembered it can come back and be restored. From that moment I vowed that I would save the devil from himself to restore peace and unity throughout the universe. This is my biggest goal in life, however In my time I have come to learn that evil is not just embodied in the devil, but also is shown in representations such as how the Buddhists view negative minds as a form of hell or separation from god. Everything that I stand for is about love, in from the bottom of my heart Lucifer is no exception. I have often wondered if god himself made me for this role as I have always felt this was my purpose, and the reason for my thinking is because during that conversation when I was 6, god never forbade me for pursing this mission nor did he try to deter me away from it. After than I continued my place within the congregation and joined the church choir where I remained for a further 4 years. In 2000 my family moved up to Yorkshire where my faith began to diminish due to personal problems at home. I remained faithless for a further 7 years after that and had fallen completely off the path, it was through a series of seemingly random events that would steer my path in another direction. In 2007 my brother was living with some friends and one of them (Ben) was very much a hippie, he would always have interesting stories to tell and as he was older than me I looked up to him quite a bit. One day on my visit to see my brother, Ben was no longer there and I ask my brother where he had gone, he said that Ben had gone to live in a Buddhist monestry near York and this amazed me. So out of interest I went to visit Ben with my Grandfather and immediately fell in love with the place. Within one month I had completed an application for a working visit and also a residential application to move in (having a working visit is required for entry as a resident to the monestry), and within two weeks I had become a resident at Madhyamaka College. I spent a total of 8 months there studying on the foundation course where we studied two books. One was called understanding the mind which was a very comprehensive book explaining the workings of the mind in a scientific manor, the other book (8 steps to happiness) was my favourite book as it was all about learning to love and cherish others and training in wisdom to be able to use it properly (it was a lovely read). During the foundation programme I learn the entire linage history of the Gaden tradition or Ganden Oral lineage as it is known by Tibetans. After that I completed a three year closed retreat in a secret location where you complete a series of 1 million mantra's, a mandala practice as well as mahamudra meditation which involves dissolving the three minds (gross, subtle and very subtle). The purpose of this special retreat is to completely isolate yourself from the outside world, food and provisions are brought to the cottage where the retreat took place so all of my basic needs where taken care of, this isolation was extremely hard but the whole point of the retreat is to completely change your mind, I can say for certain that I never saw the world in the same way after that but not in a bad way, it was like taking a step back from material life and then never going back to that state of mind. This experience completely renewed me spiritually and my path was back on the right course, although at that time I was worried that I had betrayed the church by converting to Buddhism (little did I know of the shock I was about to receive). I returned to Brighton at the age of 20 after receiving my vows for highest yoga tantra practise (a very secret and special practise of Dharma which cannot be discussed with those who haven't received a tantric empowerment) to see my old priest father Terry who had brought me up through his church since birth. I recall sitting in his living room and confessing to him that I was a Buddhist, however to my astonishment father Terry just sat in his arm chair and laughed! I asked him, but why are you laughing? Are you not mad with me that I have betrayed the church, now I will never ever forget the words he said to me next as this would change my life forever. He said "William, there are many different pathways to god, you've just chosen this one". And then it all made sense to me, that all of us are on the path and that every path is the right one! I was ecstatic and rejoiced in this new found knowledge. Recent event's in my life have been slowly drawing me closer and closer to magical practises as a psychic once told me that I am an earth angel. And with this I resolved to study the occult arts. I joined this websote in May 2014, and I have to say just how impressed I am with everyone I have met here, even after all this learning I still feel like I will never stop learning more :D