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Hello,
I dabbled in witchcraft a few years ago. I stopped because it seemed that every spell I did took a massive payment in the form of something important in my life. I thought my spells were backfiring and stopped. This past summer I started again because my boyfriend of a few years was arrested. The same thing as before is happening. We jointly cast a hoodoo court case spell calling on Thor and Odin. It was a brilliant success and we ended up with a miracle outcome. A few days later I lost my home and was attacked by a dog and couldn't walk for a week. I suspected it was the spell. I tried a spell to help my best friend. It failed. Right after it I lost one of my jobs. I did a spell to "draw down the moon". I feel it was successful, but then my best friend turned on me and kicked me out of the house, throwing my stuff on the lawn screaming that I think I'm a doctor?? (A whole other level of crazy!) So afterward my boyfriend (the love of my life) and I had to stay at a friends and I did a nice new home spell. The spell was marked to Hecate, Juno, and Hestia. During the spell I was in meditation and I could feel something bargaining with my subconscious asking if I would be happy in the new home without my boyfriend? I was in a super calm state and thought I could be happy anytime. Right after the last candle burnt out my boyfriend left me. An hour before he left he was trying to find someone to help us move into the new place we were getting. Didn't even break up with me. Got his stuff when I wasn't home, quit his job and moved 2 hours away. Blocked me, got his fam to block me, and won't talk to me. I had to move into the new place by myself. I've been absolutely miserable ever since and terrified to do another spell to fix my situation. I always smudged everything with sage, used lavendar to help calm the angrier ingredients and cast mental circles, although I stopped calling the corners because it just doesnt resonate with me. Ppl say there is no cost, but it's not true. Is there a way to avoid this? Does every spell take something hugely precious for mediocre results? How can I undo what's been done???