I am the kind of person that enjoys learning new things all of the time. I am constantly reading, or just experimenting with trial and error, and using the results to furhter myself.
As of late, however, I find myself with no drive. Nothing sticks out as being something I care to learn about. Just a few weeks ago I was reading two books and had lined what I was going to read next. I didn't lose interest at the time and simply lost the gumption to pick back up. This has happened to me before, but not for such an extensive period of time.
I suppose I have an idea as to what's going on, but not an idea on how to remedy it.
I'm also the kind of person that likes to share what I learn, and I find myself with few people to share it with, and fewer that care or take it seriously. On the flipside of that are the people that already know most of what I could share with them, and they are also few and far between.
I don't know if anyone else can make sense of this, but this whole thing has me at a standstill in my practice altogether. Like I have reached as far as I can reach. In my mind I want to reach further, but somehow I can't. If I were asked how things were going with my progression, I would answer that I haven't had the time. But I have. The truth is I have simply ignored everything and everyone that has to do with my practice. I apologize for that, I have no excuse. I don't really even have a reasonable explanation, because to be honest, I have no idea what's going on with me.
just thought I'd share what I know for right now.
that sort of apathetic feeling seems to effect those among the psionic community the most, if your practices lead down that path.
seems to be a common denominator with the community, possibly a enforced period of rest brought by the intensity of study or a necessary period for the body to catch up to the soul.
personally, I have no sweet clue. but speculation is fun ^^
Re: A standstill By: SueLearning Moderator / Adept
Post # 5 Feb 23, 2009
I'm glad to see I'm not the only one feeling this way. I have been for lack of a better word blocked for awhile now. I have been try'n to unblock myself, but have had no luck. Does anyone have any idea's?
Awww Perdu...you can always talk to me but I am sorry to say I have been busy as well...it seems this block is contagious...Ive felt like BLAH as well but no more for me...and Ill light your fire too...lol
Plateaus are just a normal part of the cycle. For me, when i start to stress out about the plateau - like, why is this happening? have i lost my touch? Why does life seems so empty? etc, then it starts to spiral downward for me. Instead when i focus on the impermanency of the plateau - or even the down slopes - i realize it's nothing personal and nothing lasting.
Sometimes standstills are entirely necessary for the betterment of the self.
i got a whole new bag of tricks for you to play with, :D so no worries your mind will be thirsting for new theories soon that have never been contemplated before ;D
If I'm ever on at the same time as you I'll look forward to it. My work schedule changed again.
Sir, you will come to realize that the loss of ego is no significant loss. The rise of ego is the killer. And maybe part of my problem.
