Hi im robert and im an unusual 13 year old teen.. I feel forever alone and go through emotional pain both with familiy and school... And I releive that presure by cutting myself with a cheesey pencil sharpner razor. I AM emo, but just because someone cuts themself doesnt make them emo neccesarily... And I just feel lost, alone, and abandoned and I dont think thoose emotions arnt gona change anytime soon. my life is basicly a pain in the ass, and I sometimes wish I was dead... And im single. Probably will be for the rest of my life, even though I had one gf that made me feel like a man... But she broke up with me for apparently no reason. I dunu, I just wana see wat you guys think... My life already can suck ass, and I feel that everyday is a meaningless strugle that ill never earn anything or be anyone even though my mom bitches at me that Im gona be the next bill gates, but I think shes lost it scince I was born
Well, you are welcome here regardless.. and I recommend finding stuff on meditation and do that, say, till the new year, I have confidence your feelings will reveal themselves to you. Be well, :D
Have you tried going to see a phsycologist? It doesn't make you crazy but, it might be nice to have someone to be able to talk to. Exercise also tends to help with being sad. If you want, you could try Karate, or some other sort of martial arts form. You might also want to join some sort of group where you can make friends at your school maybe football, art, choir, or something like that. You might also want to try getting a pet if you like animals once you start to feel better. There have been studies that show that animals improve your self esteem and lower your blood pressure, I'm not saying you have high blood pressure but, at the very least you need to go talk to somebody who is qualified, even if it's a school counselor you go to every week, or even everyday. Trust me, I've known people who went to counseling for a while and after a certain period of time they came out much happier people. So, stop cutting yourself and go see someone. Hope this helps, and trust me your not alone, no one is ever truly alone in this world, take it from me, everyone always has someone, whether it is family, friends, or even a favorite pet, no one is ever alone.
ive been to a pshychiactrist and he hasnt helped much even though i didnt tell my mom that cause i know we could use that money for vacation or something... and i do feel alone but i have a little dog in our house that i like to pet but i mean alone like im gona die with no one but maybe my parents coming to my funeral kinda alone. probably no wife, no kids, hell id be lucky to get a gf...
First of all Robert, everyone goes through a time in their life when they feel totally alone and depressed. Everyone goes through it but try to find a better way to deal with your emotions. Talking to someone is good. Also, try and think of something you like to do that makes you happy. Then, go and do whatever makes you happy. If you like football, go play football. You could try listening to some happy music and, like someone said counseling is really good. Generally, after a while of seeing a psychologist you come out a completely different person than you were before. By that I mean your attitude totally changes. As for the school thing, school is hard. People are jerks but, take it from me, someone who was picked on constantly since age twelve people get better. Wait until your junior or senior year in high school or your first year of college. You will see a change in people that you never expected. Some People who you thought were mean, start becoming nicer to you, and the whole thing turns around. Also about the friends and your girlfriend thing try and join an activity where there are a lot of girls around. Choir and Theatre are good bets because there are usually more girls than guys. Choir people are usually pretty nice, depending on what choir your in. As for the self-confidence issue if you think your going to grow up to be nothing you will be. Have you ever heard of Self-fulfilling prophecy? It means basically you are what you think you are. If you start saying your going to be nothing you will be. You keep telling yourself stuff like that and telling yourself that causes it to happen. Try this, it helped me when I was younger. When your feeling bad about start thinking about everything your good at, everything that is good in your life, and what you can do that other people can't and generally the list is bigger than all the bad stuff right now. It can be any talent, small are large, just anything you think that your good at. Also, it helps you find out things about yourself that you don't always think about. Please see somebody, cutting yourself is a really serious thing. Also, you were talking about the psychiatrist. It takes months to get good results on medications sometimes. I mean, first he has to figure out what you have. That was probably why he was talking to you, second he has to figure out what kind of medications to try, and third he has to figure out the appropriate dosage and such. Sometimes I bet it takes them a while to figure out what a particular person has. They can't just go and say, here try these pretty blue pills I'm not sure what your condition is but they look like they'll work. I don't mean to offend you with the comment. For all we know you could have some really serious kind of depression, or maybe a really rare type that needs to be treated and evaluated a certain way. Hope this helps, oh and don't give up on life. Your only thirteen, life gets better.
Hi. I was really depressed, too when I was younger. From the ages of 11 to 15 or 16. Things did get better, though, but then...I was lucky enough to have encountered something that gave me a reason to drudge myself out of it. Maybe you'll find something like that, too.
Or I could tell you what it was I did to drudge myself out, if you're interested.
In any event, you won't be alone forever. I've felt that way before, too. Especially after I broke up with this one guy that I loved so much I just couldn't imagine that there would ever be anybody else.
And I know for you to stop cutting is probably easier said than done. It's kind of what works for you (I have my mascacistic points, too). But, maybe atleast some of the time try to use another method. Or try weening yourself off of it, little by little. Like, I can be a total mess sometimes and decide to write a poem or something about how I feel and when I'm done.....suddenly I feel better. I guess it's kind of like your emotions being bottled up inside and then getting released through something that was self-expressive (like poetry, drawing, dance, etc.). It might sound a little silly (and it's been a surprise to me too that it works) but it might be worth a shot.
Also, yoga might help. I don't know why it makes you feel better, but it does. I mean,...I got this little booklet that had some yoga poses in it and I had never done yoga before and remember standing in some position that is supposed to be like being a tree and thinking, ".....This is supposed to make me feel more security?!". It didn't make any sense to me at all, but after a few days of doing the yoga poses in the booklet, I felt great. And I can't even say it was from thinking that it was going to work, because I didn't. I didn't see how that could work at all. But it did anyway.
Plus, I think Aleister Crowley promoted doing Yoga.
I hope you don't mind the suggestions. I hope they weren't unasked for. Sometimes people start throwing out suggestions and all you really wanted was for them to listen. Well, please forgive me if I didn't understand or give you what you really needed. But if you tell me, I can be better the next time. :-)
Oh....and reading Edgar Allan Poe is good, too. Reading him, for me, was like finding someone who understood me and how I felt. Perhaps he can provide that for you, too.
