You are going through a difficult time right now, but that doesn't mean you were "born under a black cloud." For instance, you are alive; you have a computer and the Internet, which indicates some amount of financial solvency; you aren't starving, or living on the streets; in short, you have been blessed - but you focus on the negatives, because that is human nature, and they are probably surprising to you who have not experienced such hard realities before.
Take a small journal, and carry it with you. Whenever you are happy or something good happens, mark it down. Whenever you are sad or something bad happens, mark it down. MAKE SURE to be objective and concentrate on each equally. After a week or a month, I wager that the "Good" side will have more than than the Bad.
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not my computer or internet. i wish i knew what was the reason for this. i cant find the root. everything i touch seems to go to heck. my truck brokedown then my foks car that was getting me to work broke down, i feel like my best friend turned his back on me. and dont even wanna discuss my track record with men. im not usually a negative person but this has piled up in like two months time. though it has seems like the negative has followed me my whole life. i usually beat it but not now. one of crystals even turned partially black on me. what is the deal?
I'm sorry to hear things aren't going so well for you. Try to look at it from another perspective: you may not own the computer, but you can still use it, and it - and the Internet - still work. You may have trouble getting to work, but unlike many nowadays, you have a job. You most likely have a loving family and a bright future. Things may be going wrong... but they're not as bad as they could be. Most likely, you're just at the bottom of Fortuna's Wheel, and she will soon spin you back upwards again.
One thing you can do to rid yourself of accumulated and future bad luck is make a "scapedoll". Twist a rough human shape out of some grass or other plant material. While you make it, recite all of your troubles and pour your frustrations into it. Take a piece of paper, write your first name on it, and if you are able, create a sigil on the other side with the intent to bind your bad luck to the grass figure. Attach the paper to the figure - it doesn't matter how - and bury them both together, preferably in a depression or low place. Your ill-fortune will be attracted to the doll, and as it decomposes the negative energy/bad luck will dissipate with it.
thank you everyone for your kind words. i did a simple cleansing of my own thru a suggestion of a friend. i wrote all my troubles on paper then went out site and lite a white candle and burned the paper to ash. i then released it to the wind and gave thanks. it absolutely worked wonders. the issues are still there but i am no longer overwhelmed by them
