About spells?

And Kiva... wow your dad is Hindu! But I dont know how I can ask my favourite God (Lord Shiva) to help me...

Lord Shiva generally helps in getting a great guy... I even fast for that but my BF seems to be going far :/

The truth is within you... find yourself, look within and you will find the truth you seek. That's why I recommend meditation... know yourself, be happy with who you are, keep love in your heart and work on visualization, and your path and the answers you seek will show themselves to you from within. You will be drawn to things that you never knew about but "just make sense" or "just feels right" to you. You are already on your path and finding the truth... keep up the good work.