patron god/desses

my patron god is ra the sun god and hathor and still thank the other ones too in the egyptian pantheon

Well in my opinion Paganism usually is balance. We are honoring earth religion is believing that Mother nature is just and balance. Not "good" nor "Bad", Gods and Goddesses are pure. My patron "Ganapati" is one of the example. We call him "Vighnaraja" as well as "Vighnashaka". "Vighnaraja" means the Lord of Obstacle and "Vighnashaka" means the Remover of Obstacle so He's the one that giving Obstacle as well as the one of who remove it.

Balance is a rather intriguing concept, as it implies that things remain the way they are - 'balanced' - for ever. Of course, anybody with some real life experience knows that things change, move, shift, adapt. Things are constantly in a flux, there really isn't a balance, but a marginal line to be followed. Some times forces are acted upon in a negative light, and others in a positive, more so when influenced by the human being. It's really a fanciful idea of nature.

And to answer the original post, I do not have a patron. I respect and acknowledge nature, and their spirits.

The following on Hecate is my personal experience and knowledge of her. It's just a bit.

Hecate is a rather misunderstood goddess. She is a tri-goddess of the moon and of magic, this is true. She reminds me of cerridwin, a bit, but Hecate is like the nasty woman who doesn't take crap from anyone. She can be good and bad, as she doesn't care either way how things are done, rather that they get the intended result. And through the judeo-christian take over of southern/middle Europe, and southern England, and parts of Wales. she was demonized, as were many of the pagan dieties of the time. I think there was a myth about her snatching children (babies or newborns) and eating them in the middle of the night. Makes me chuckle.

For one thing, I must applaude you for finding a connection with a higher power. Not many people can feel open with, well, anyone, like that.