What sort of protection precautions are you already doing on a normal basis? Wards? Amulets? Rituals? What is set up at the very moment you are reading this? No Google searching to cheat.
Because what you are describing sounds like nothing more than a case of someone that jumped head first into advanced magick without realizing they have to have really good willpower and defenses up first. Especially, ESPECIALLY with chaos magick. Do you realize the implications of chaos magick when done wrong? I've seen it cause people to unhinge and lose their sanity. And that's what's happening to you right now. So I suggest you stop what it is you are doing, back up and start working to repair the damage you did to yourself asap.
Well, when I pick up negative feelings around me, I tend to pull it inside my body. Then what I do next is try to ground it. It's ok, you're not the only one casting spells then it takes opposite affects. It seems like if I cast good spells, it is reversed and it turns into a bad spell. And if I cast a bad spell, it turns into a good spell.
Have you ever thought you could be an Empath? An empath is someone who can feel others emotions as if they were their own. When someone is like this and they don't take measures or don't know how to block these emotions they feel as if their being attacked or sometimes carry those emotions with them for awhile. Happy feelings are strong but they don't last in the body as long as darker emotions...I hope that makes sense. Its hard to put feelings into words. Sort of how its easier to ruin a good day, than making a bad day good. Try some of the things mentioned already by others that have posted.
You can also try and when you take a shower, imagine all those feelings and negativity washing away. With things like this, a lot of it is mind over matter.
I am an empath myself. I have seen a black mass before. It could have been my higher self but I call it an energy vampire. Now what it does is it absorbs the energy out of you. Of course, I am a person who can absorb energy around me too. What I had to do was absorb that black mass inside me, then ground it.
WhiteR4ven, I have to use chaos magick since more than 6 months. Also, I am always cautious about everything, and did not jump right into the advanced part of magick.
I use a protection sigil everytime I practice witchcraft.
...anyway, another reason why I think that this might be a possession is because our house is full of negative energy. My parents fight all the time and most of the times I am sad either of them or because my life is hard.
Now, combine these two together...
Also, I don't think that I am an empath for some reason...
I also now rethink about it, and I conclude that it might be a psychic attack from some enemies at school. The only thing that declares this possibility false is that I sometimes manage to overthrow the negative influence, but sometimes it struggles to torment me again.
Oh, what one of you guys mentioned about auras might also be correct. My root chakra is underactive while my crown is open.
P.S. something about the negative thoughts that occur: they used to happen most of the times I thought of the gods. Like it was trying to abstract me from them or something.
For the more minor things wear a triquatra. If it's still an issue incorporate salt into everything you do... As salt is something demons can't stand it will probably chose to leave. And if that doesn't work get a cleansing.
And last resort, even after a cleansing get an exorcism.
If you feel all this to be to drastic, than attempt to either subjigate or befriend the demon.
