send me strength

Hell-spawn, that doesn't seem very healthy. No matter if the practioner walks a light or dark path, they should seek peace/calmness. Negative emotions, whether it be fear, heartache, hatred, jealousy etc, although natural should be RELEASED not swapped. All of them are not only harmful to your mind but for your body too. Hate is fueled by anger and anger causes high blood pressure and adrenaline which weakens the immune system and causes unnecessary stress to the heart among other things.

I would suggest connecting with a feline spirit for help. Look through them from domestic cat to lion to the cougar. I would suggest the cougar personally. All felines are confidant, independent, and self sufficient. They can lend us inner strength and balance and most importantly willpower.
http://www.animalspirits.com/index1.html
Learn all you can about the animal on both a scientific and spiritual/symbolic level. Get a picture of one, or draw one (I even like putting an image of them as my phone's wallpaper). Sit down with it and meditate. Call out to it and ask it to come to your aid. Continue doing so until you either feel its presence, see it in your mind, or receive another sign. When it comes, offer it something (hint all cats love milk, even the big ones) and tell it kindly to stay with you and lend you its power. Mind you, its "power" is merely the attributes it has, traditionally you would ask it to lend you its "medicine".
Then meditate on connecting to the animal by imagining and feeling as though you are the animal. Let it take you over. Do this until you feel the connection has been made. Then return to feeling as yourself, ground, center, and thank the spirit for its gifts. Anytime you feel you need the feline's support, call to him in your mind or focus on an image of the animal. The feeling of their medicine should wash over you when the animal arrives.

May the spirits guide you and bless you. You are a healer and healing has no room for hatred in your heart.

I never said it was healthy,now did i >;)

i'd say that hell_spawn or the other dude didn't help at all. thanks Whiterav3n and i'd say that i'm a fox :3 it's my spiritual animal and the site that you put up described it well, i guess is should lean on her more, eh?(:

I can definitely see you as a fox person. I have a friend who was named "fox woman" in cherokee by the people there. The fox is a healer and very intelligent. He'll be able to teach you a lot.

Although our animal spirits are wonderful companions and you should definitely work with yours more, what I was describing is a way to evoke other animal spirits to help us for a specific situation. For instance, if you were meek, a bear could teach you to be bolder. If you were facing an adversary more powerful than you, good old rabbit could show you the ways of intellect over brawn. But the fox...he is even trickier than the rabbit! This should make you smile about your animal spirit
http://chronicpainsite.com/mb/forum_posts.asp?TID=4819&title=how-rabbit-lost-his-tail-cherokee-story

I don't know why its on this site, but it was the only site I found with the accurate story! I actually heard it told, not read it before.

Our personal spirit animal is one most like us. But we can't forget that other animals have wisdom of their own and can help us as well.

That story did make me smile :D i love my spirit animal a lot. we mirror eachother but she still teaches me everyday, helping me with my gifts and such. and thanks, i'll be sure to look into the different aspects of other animals, this will help a lot. how'd you get so smart? D: lol

I cannot.... I need to have your soul and energy present. That's what I believe.

Pray to the Gods.
MEDITATE!!!!!!!! MEDTITATE!!! Go outside, meditate in the moon or the sun. Image the sun and moon giving you energy. If your meditating from the sun image a ray from the sky coming in your body giving you energy. Same with moon. You can do this outdoors or within. Meditate. That's the only way how. Pray and chant.

This is a YOU part, if you don't want to meditate that proves how lazy you are. And you make a bad student.

You're welcome. And lol @ "how did you get so smart".

I've been working with spirit animals before I knew what they were. When I was a child, I thought they were my imaginary friends. My mother knew differently, but she didn't say anything until I was old enough to understand.

you can not what, angelica? and i meditate often, it's not a new thing for me.

and same here, whiterav3n, except my father is just so adament that none of this exists.. i've had to learn all of this on my own. the only thing that confirmed that what i saw and what i knew was true was talking with hundreds of others just like me on here :D

Well I'm very pleased that you were firm in your own thoughts and sought others like you! Too many people take the easy route and just accept what others tell them without using their own mind and heart. May the spirits guide and bless you. I'm sure you'll do just great, as long as you continue on in the way that has led you this far.