Something terrible happened to me.I was lost with pain & suffer. Because of that, my reality changed. I can "see" and 'knows' thing that I can't understand.It's was worse at the beginning but I try to understand but now it seem to be "lost"
from me. I'll been try in to get "it" back. I think I have the gift.Bare with me.
In the day that I'm lost, I exile myself from others. In that day I have saw 'it'. I have seen a Fallen I recently known as Raum.A Crow who save me from embarrassed and death. But it was fear I feel at that time and I ran.I ran from him. Then, a light shinning upon me, a rain drop gently above me and since then I
have this feeling I have change. I have change to something else.
My will become stronger.Sometimes my word not come from me.
I know things will happened. Answer just appear itself upon question. Sometimes it make me think I'm crazy.
It has been 3 year since it happened. Now I'm home.
At home, I have learn that my Great Grandfather was a kind of Socerrer or Wizard which we call here a "Pawang".It is said that
He use to have a few spiritual being we call here a "Jin" to help him in his practise. The "Jin" sworn to protect my family since then. Until now, I am the stronger in my family.
It's been said that the Jin has been with me since a child and want me to be like my Great Grandfather. I'll always know my life will go to different path in the near future. Something big will happened that will change my life forever.
Hello fallen,life is full of strange arrangements,most things we bring or attract them too ourselves,my situation I was brought up a spiritualist,of which can be dangerous to a young and impressionable mind and the consequences were as i got older,I had a kind of breakdown,The only advice i can offer you is not of a mystical nature but of self discipline,We are all susceptible to self fulfilling prophecy,the most of my early years on this planet all that surrounded me was spiritualism,this journey mind you can be long tedious it can shake your whole belief system and may not get what your trying to achieve,either way we live and learn,in lamens terms,you have to try and disassociate your self from what you think you believe and what your expected to believe,in a way come outside of yourself and give your belief system other possibilities or options to focus on,this gives your mind some space to breath and unclog all the unnecessary "pain and suffering" which you are or have endured,in away this will either help focus your beliefs and place you on the right path to be able to channel them towards there true purpose,or the other extreme this can lead you towards another purpose and a completely different way of thinking tho you will never lose the foundations of your old ways if they are your truth,you may just be lead onto another path,which can be as tough but enlightening,I stress this is not a right or wrong way of finding answers its just an option.but it helps if you can step outside of your life and look in at your self it tough but it is one of the easiest ways of trying to search for who you are.add me as a friend maybe we can learn off each other, hope you find what your looking for, best wishes, Howler
