I have to tell this story. It's one of many. I have dealing with this subject.
Over a month ago I downloaded some of my favorite bands more acoustical songs off their last few albums. Many of you may know Pearl Jam. Any way, some of the songs were very melancholy and I felt very centered on death and dying. I listened to them over and over, cried and cried while singing these songs. They just hit me. This went on for nearly 3 weeks. A neighbor down the road told me during this time that my next door neighbor was dying of cancer. I was shocked. I'd seen them less over the 3 week period and assumed they were visiting. Then all of a sudden they came home and my melancholy stopped. I stopped listening to the music. I went next door, made myself available as much as possible to a family in crisis I barely knew but could just feel their pain, the wife's fear, and the man's pain. The wife accepted graciously and thanked me. She would always tell me she didn't need anything, but I didn't listen I just did things. I shared meals, helped them On my way! their lawn, offered rides whatever. It always would come at a good time and she would always be so thankful I thought of her. I swear when her husband felt really bad , I did too. My moods and melancholy followed his chemo progress for two more weeks. Yesterday I started listening to the music again around noon while I was on the road
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Well the end of the story is he died yesterday evening.
This story is not about the music or the deeds I've done. It's about the feelings I get, I have, I can't control and just act upon. Like I said this is just one story . I have many more. I'm trying to learn how to not let these emotions affect me so much. Any ideas?
I dont know it this works for everybody. But hears what i do.
I imagine I'm in a bubble. The bubble surrounds me a meter from my body and protects me from head to tow. I then fill the bubble with positive thoughts and feelings.
First: I am not promoting this and my physical health suffers because of it. Second: Since I was 18 years old I chain smoke cigarettes to focus my mind, keep emotions in check and block out others emotions. I consider it a curse that overwhelms me if not blocked out completely.
That being said, I sympathize but have no advice. I took zn unhealthy road to handle mine.
Here's what I did. Learn to control your own emotions before you can prevent other emotions from effecting you on command. You'll begin to understand emotions better but also become more capable of effecting them. I could give you a few tips on learning how to do this if you have trouble learning on your own.
I think you could use sheilding if its realy causing you that much discomfort but the truth is that pain is a part of life. Dont sing the songs any more. Just let edd do it. I am going through the same stage in the development of my empathic abilities and have been for years. Im sorry about your neighbor. Pushing all that positive energy out into the universe by doing those nice things will come back to you.
Thanks Wiccadoll2. I'm pretty good at figuring out my emotions, but I had no idea these were channeled to the man next door. I'm learning to tune out and as suggested above learn to place my mind in a bubble. When I know I've focused on something I try to work to deflect the negative energies and do something positive.i do not seek things like this out. Stuff like this just happens out of the blue and I'm left trying to figure out if it's me and my pain or someone else's. Thank you all for the suggestions.
