The Main Tragedy of my life: So basically I was born from a tragedy. My mother died of a brain aneurysm 3 weeks before I was suppose to be born. After 6 hours on life support I was born through a C-section. My mother died on the platform between the two sets of stair in the house I am living in. My sister, who was 3 at the time, was the only one that saw her fall and died.
About my house: A good handfull of my friends feel some presences in my house. They tell me that they feel a "good" and a "bad" presence. They have told me that they felt someone was there to protect, they said they feel the "good" presence everywhere, especially around me. They assume it to be my mother, but I don't assume it to because I dont feel any "good" presence. I only feel the negative presence. I feel it normally at night either downstairs or in my sister's old bedroom. I feel like something is watching me from the shadows, I feel uncomfortable and unsafe. Like I am not welcome. Now when I asked my friends where they feel the negative they tell me downstairs and in my sister's old room. A couple days ago my friends and I were talking about this ( it was was first time all of us were together at once). I asked them "where downstairs do you feel the negative?" All 3 of the agreed the they felt it watching them from the platform between the 2 sets of stairs. The same platform where my mother died. Now they knew my mother died, but they never knew where she died. So needless to say after I told them that was where she died they were a little creeper out. There have been an incident where I have seen a back of a black cape figure go up the 2nd set of stairs when I was standing at the bottom when I was home alone.
I feel the safer in my bedroom with the door shut and the light on.
The event that happened this morning: It's around 4 am I was reading about astral projection. I was reading Solitary Witch.
The inteructions they gave to astral projection were :
1. Lay somewhere comfortable
2. Take 3 breath ( through the nose out your mouth)
3. Think about being surround by pure/white
4. Focus on your third eye and when you are focused and relaX your astral body can start to climb out of you physical body from your third eye.
They say some people might get the feeling that they are floating.
Attempt 1: I had my bedside liget on. I got to the point where I did feel like I was floating. It was an awesome feeling. However, my body was doing little jerking movements. It felt like like I wasent in control of my body. It felt like my mind or something wanted to get up or move but my body or something didn't.
Attempt 2: The light was still on. This time there was no floating feeling. My eyes were closed. However it kept feeling like my eyes were opening and widening. I literally thought my eyes were open but I couldn't see anything. It was pure white. I broke my relation by reaching my hand to touch my eye to see if they were open. Which they weren't.
Attempt 3: I turned the light off. So I was in complete darkness. Basically the same thing with attempt happen. However this I broke my relation because I felt an irritation in my foot. A couple seconds after I open my eyes and knew I was in my body. I saw a face go across my room. It was very quick and it made me feel like I should leave my room which was the only place i felt safe in my house at night. I dont really know if what i saw was actually there or if it was in my mind. Either way it felt real to me. After the face disappeared i turned the light on. The irritation in my foot was still there however it turned into a burn sensation for a couple seconds then stopped completely.
That was around 4 am, the sun is now up and I feel safe to go to bed.
What I want to know:
1. Do you believe the "good" presence is my mother and is she protecting me?
2. Why do you think the negative presence likes to hang around where my mother died and why does it spend anytime in my sister's old room?
3. Now I don't really know if I did do astral projection correct. Like I don't know if it worked or if I came close to it working. What has been your experience with it, if you have any?
4. Does astral projection allow you to see the spirits or entities that wonder your house or do you just see them when you are on the astral plane? Because if it does allow you to see what wonders your house, I really feel like the face I saw was the negative presence.
Anyways I got to go to bed now. Please leave your honest opinions.
The main tragedy of your life is not a tragedy, it is a miracle. You obviously are here in your present form to do something very important and significant. I truly believe that. Your post really reached out and the immediate gut feeling i got was that you are important. I dont know how or why, but its your job to figure that out.
What I want to know:
1. Do you believe the "good" presence is my mother and is she protecting me?
Only someone who knows you and your mom could probably tell you this. There are a ton of fake psychics out there though. Dont waste any money on them. You are at SoM so you are on a path. I feel pretty confident you will figure this one out on your own. Keep at it.
2. Why do you think the negative presence likes to hang around where my mother died and why does it spend anytime in my sister's old room?
Both of you went through something very difficult. There are a lot of reasons this could be. If it was me, I would do some work and call on whatever is present to manifest itself. One way might be to use the light of a candle and see if the flame moves or changes as a manifestation.. But obviously it is affecting you negatively, so yea, you should work to get to the bottom of it.
3. Now I don't really know if I did do astral projection correct. Like I don't know if it worked or if I came close to it working. What has been your experience with it, if you have any?
Youre on the right path, keep at it. Im only a novice at this but there is this bandwidth that is quite narrow between sleep and awake where you operate in for AP. The best i can do is "move" my hands and fingers without physically moving them.
4. Does astral projection allow you to see the spirits or entities that wonder your house or do you just see them when you are on the astral plane? Because if it does allow you to see what wonders your house, I really feel like the face I saw was the negative presence.
Maybe, you have to keep working at it and get more comfortable operating in that kind of bandwidth of existence. Dont be afraid and jusr feel really confident about yourself when you go "there"
Anyways I got to go to bed now. Please leave your honest opinions.
Go to bed, get some sleep and i hope when you read this you realize just how important and significant you are. you can make choices to love and to hurt in this world, but you are here for a very important reason. I feel absolutely certain of it.
Your mother loves you, her existence is different now, but she loves you and is looking after you. Dont ever think otherwise.
Find you purpose, make your own meaning and please please share it with the world!
1. Do you believe the "good" presence is my mother and is she protecting me?
Well if it is your mother, and she is the 'good' not 'bad' spirit then I would say yes. You never know. I mean, you could try speaking with the spirit, but it could be a random spirit. The odds do say your mother. Try communicating with the 'good' spirit.
2. Why do you think the negative presence likes to hang around where my mother died and why does it spend anytime in my sister's old room?
Well again you don't know if the 'good' spirit is your mother. The 'bad' spirit could be her. She died in a tragic way and was still pregnant with you, and her daughter was in the room in that moment she could of felt terrible, she could of blamed herself, whatever the reason, her sorrow could of filled the area with enough negative energy to effect the area today. A build up of negative energy can have the same effects as a negative spirit, and if your family and friends continue to feed fear to it, it will continue to grow. Just an opinion. Another option could be the negative spirit moved in after the death because of the sorrow and trauma in the area. I would cleanse this area well and protect it. Be sure when you cleanse to specify the negative energy/spirit leave but the positive energy/spirit can stay. Don't say your mothers spirit can stay unless you conferm it is her. As I said, the negative being could be her and you would acidentally remove the 'good' spirit if it is not your mother and the negative would stay if it was your mother.
3. Now I don't really know if I did do astral projection correct. Like I don't know if it worked or if I came close to it working. What has been your experience with it, if you have any?
When I was starting out I had similar feelings. Sometimes my eyes would feel open, and I usually felt as though I was floating [sometimes falling] and at first I got excited or it was so sudden I would jolt myself back. You need to work past this. Everyone I've talked to spends the first little while accidentally shaking themselves back into their physical bodies due to excitement of getting it right. In your case it could also be your body forcing you back because of the negative spirit lingering. Try casting a circle next time, it will keep the spirit away if that is what's stopping you.
4. Does astral projection allow you to see the spirits or entities that wonder your house or do you just see them when you are on the astral plane? Because if it does allow you to see what wonders your house, I really feel like the face I saw was the negative presence?
The Ethral plane [the one in between the physical and astral] is where spirits dwell and many do say you can see spirits. I have seen some spirits, more orbs, but if the spirit doesn't want you to see them, they will find a way. The spirit who has been with me for 12 years is like that. Whenever I project he leaves the room. For some reason he doesn't want to been seen. But he's strange. You will probably see the 'good' spirit if its your mother, but you might have to go to your sisters old room to see the negative spirit as you mentioned it doesn't enter your room.
the positive feeling can very well be your mother or some other entity like a spirit guide protecting you. negative entities often dwell amongst us looking for a way back in to our world through latching on to our energies.yes in the astral world you can see these entities, and they can bother you. i astral protect all the time.....what do u do to try it?
I suggest working on your meditation skills so that you can learn to shield better before you continue to try astral projections. Lack of shielding can result in only sensing the negative energies surrounding yourself. You should also learn how to cleanse and banish negative energies from yourself and your living spaces. Through working with the body's chakras you can increase your meditation skills, increase your shielding as well as eventually learn to astral project. As you work with all of your chakras you will open and align them. As your third eye opens and aligns with your other chakras you will then be able to sense more, specifically when it comes to "seeing" things.
