Greetings all,i am new to magic and i have just joined your coven.I have been married for 18 yrs to a bipolar,boarder line arrogant woman which i love very much she has had a very hard life.three years ago she got pregnant with twins(mine of course)then she told me she didn't love me anymore just like that my life turned upside down(i never cheated on her,never hurt her).I didn't know what to do,i have a 16 yrs old son she was fighting with on a daily basis,he can`t seem to do anything right for her.My son is a good kid he`s talented and good nature d but a teenager and she can`t seem to see that.i am living in the same house but we sleep in different rooms.It is frustrating to love someone and not get any love back.the twins have been a constant joy and challenge.i have no one to love, i have spent the last three years working(major overtime)and coming home to constant complaining and bitching for not spending time helping her take care of the twins(words cannot express the intense emotions i feel),I had no social life at all.I have tried to find another woman but so far no one.Now three weeks ago i was laid off form my job of three years and have nothing to fall back on totally broke now,can`t pay my rent,waiting for my unemployment check,lonely and depressed yet i feel more optimistic than ever.I love myself first and with that i know i can overcome anything,the light of inner strength burns in me and with that it keeps me going though though times.now through all this for the last 30 yrs i have been attacked by a dark entity not daily but maybe once a year or it might wait two or three years but it drains me.Then when times get tough(i saw it last week) it appears to me and attacks me some times physical but mostly mentally, emotionally.All attempts at banishing this thing are met with increased activity(like it just pisses this thing off)but i have noticed that if i keep love in my heart(like jesus) it cannot harm me although this thing is crafty and uses outside influences to hurt me(i have no good friends and my wife doesn't love me,lost my job,can`t find work)i think i`m a good person but hey what do i know huh?.well through all this i maintain my love of my family and self.i have written this poem to help me through the rough spots when i read it the fire within burns bright and i know i will be ok.
THE LIGHT WITHIN -- The skies are dark and all seems unfair and there is a cold bitter silence in the air,"All is lost!" they say, as they hang there heads and sigh,I stand in a furry and state in a hurry,"All is NOT lost!,we must fight and we WILL win!",for the secret to escape our adversity is the light from within,So we must begin to look deep within ,silence the din and clean out your hate bin,for that is the only way to use the light from within,face your fears head on and happiness will be your sail,for the light from within will calm lifes dark seas,the light from within is in us all,it`s the becon of hope we all search for without,so don`t hesitate the future will not wait,look inside and find you will see the light from within will always bring peace and harmony.
By John Taylor (aka Almighty MasterLeo)
that is just a bit of my life,Thank you all for the chance to speak out.Peace,love
Re: never give up on love By: DarkAnubis27
Post # 2 Sep 15, 2008
brilliant post..i like it..great job
Re: never give up on love By: White_Rose
Post # 3 Sep 15, 2008
Thank you for sharing that with us, it means alot to hear of others problems. Makes it easier to trust members who truly understand the meaning of positive thinking.
The more positive we think, the stronger we become.
Its also sad in a way, seeing your life with someone who doesnt love you even though you have stayed faithful.
I hope things will get better with your employment status.
Re: never give up on love By: SilverVixen
Post # 4 Sep 15, 2008
very emotionally driven, says a lot about your character. Welcome to the coven, and I hope your time with us is enriching and enlightening.
