Ok so I didnt think I would have to admit being a witch but I suppose after this I guess I have to. For awhile I developed a natural ability at controlling and sensing energy. I could take it from objects and move it into objects as I wished with ease. But over time I began putting more effort into doing it and eventually I exhausted myself to the point which brings me here. I can still do it but its very weak and I miss controlling energy's. So what do you think I should do?
Many people dont start their magick practice with meditation and just go straight to energy munipulation and thats ok but I agree that with a problem like the one you are having meditation would probably be the best solution to rejuvinating and progressing your ablility to rejuvinate as well as progressing your ablility to efficiantly practice energy munipulation. Meditation on your chakras would be the next step up to basic meditation if regular meditation isnt working out because one of your lower chakras could be clogged up i guess you would say. If and when your energy goes back up you might want to start with concervitive methods of energy munipulation like psi ball and psi shields rather than just throwing it all over. There could be other things that are causing problems but you should start with the benign type problems as they are the most likely.
I had that same issue early on in my practices of energy-working and healing. The first thing that would happen when I began was I would suddenly need to yawn. And even after only a short session of a few minutes I would feel tired and drained. After some rest, a bit of water, and some meditation or light physical activity I would feel returned to rights.
My great-aunt was a strong healer and the one who introduced me to the practice. She could run through a healing session that would last an hour or more and then walk away just as energetic (or more so) than when she began. One day I complained to her about how tired energy-working made me feel while we were chatting over an afternoon of tea. In her blunt way, she just gave me a matter-of-fact "Well why are you using your own energy?"
Being in finite physical forms with finite processes, finite experiences, and finite reserves it is only natural that using them up is going to drain the proverbial batteries. Then you are left trying to compensate and get back to homeostasis so your system can go back to rights.
The trick is to instead connect with energies from larger sources. The higher self, universal energy, elemental energy from the environment around you, or the living energies of the earth itself. As long as you draw the energy through yourself rather than trying to be the source of it you will find things to be much easier.
As I like to say; Do not try to be an oasis trying to feed the desert. Instead, be the pipe connecting the ocean.
Ok well here's the apart of the problem anyways also I appreciate all your help :)
So Ive noticed I can activate certain parts of my body to send or retrieve energy from sources but the stronger it is the more blocked I become, right now I dont feel too bad but my ability is slowly improving but for awhile it felt as though I was surrounded by an invisible void and that was making it hard to even try and send and get energy.
Its like as though im exhausting myself and I dont know if this is apart of magical practise I can still however do enchantments with specific hand coordination's and I dont know why this works in comparison to using energy manipulation through reflex.
I have considered meditation as a possible solution however my medication that Im currently taking makes it almost impossible to meditate although I could still try.
Do you think natural ability is down to the senses or is there something else going on because when im doing the energies and it becomes blocked like how I explained I can rely on my eyes and im able to flicker energy with using my eyes and I dont mean through imagining it is something that actually works like a reflex through the eye but the more I use the weaker it becomes.
Without saying too much more I have noticed my eye sight has been deteriorating slightly anyways I want to know your thoughts on magical developed ability :)
It is generally accepted that channelling energy is a much better idea than using your own. You -can- do it that way, but it will continue to tire you out and be more limiting on what you will be able to accomplish. It also means that your physical and emotional state will have a much greater effect on how well you will be able to move the energy.
It is like saying you -can- fill a swimming pool using a bucket... Easy for a small one but it becomes arduous quickly. You might get stronger which would let you carry larger buckets over time... but that will quickly plateau. But if you run a garden hose then all you need to do is turn it on (open the flow) and let it run.
Speaking of letting it flow, that might also be a factor in how energy working gets more difficult the longer you do it. Try being aware of your thoughts and methods while you practice. Often, the more you try to control the movement the harder it becomes. Try to get out of the way. Hold a concept of your goal, and energy moving in a way that is supportive of that goal. But otherwise let the energy do the rest. Energy is a natural force that moves in its own way. Let it, and it builds a momentum of its own without having to be pushed around.
I compare it to the act of taking a sip from a cup. You don't need to shift your weight, lift your shoulder, extend your arm, straighten your elbow, turn your wrist, wrap your fingers over the cup, squeese, lift, and so on. All you need to do is realize you are thirsty and the rest happens.
Try letting go of the small details for a while. Just focus on what you want to happen (your goal/purpose in the working), where you want to draw the energy from, and where you want it to go.
