I am a 40 year old married woman with 5 kids. I grew up Christian but strayed for a long time. In my 20's I was at my darkest moments. I should have been dead a few times already. But here I am none the less. It was in my darkest hour that I realized I needed faith of some sort. I bought a bible (because that's what I grew up with) and I bought a book on witchcraft because I've always felt drawn to it. I started with the bible because like I said that's what I actually sort of known and it was foreign to me. I could not really understand the way it was written. So I put it down and started on the witchcraft book. I don't remember what it was at the time but I knew I was hooked. I had found my calling. I tried to find other people in the craft and while I did find a few, I never really found the right ones so I practiced eclectically. Constantly buying books and online communities for knowledge. Then I started to have kids and something drew me back to the Christian faith. I gave up all my Wiccan ways and belongings. I am now catholic but as I find myself scattered and burned out and just questioning everything; I remember how I loved Wiccan but I also love Jesus. I think to myself if true Wiccans are only meant to do good things, how can it be bad. Why can't I practice both. So here I am trying to find my way, my faith, and a way to improve my life and the life of my family.
I put this in my BIO because i wasn't sure what to write. I don't know of any gifts, or abilities, I only know what ive been attracted to my whole life. While i do believe in magic; I don't think i have any powers. I know i've already been asked. I am looking for others to help me in my path and learn from them.
Hello Demetria and welcome! I can definitely relate to where you're coming from. I found this site and am reading up on Wicca and witchcraft also and I've also been drawn to witchcraft since I was a child. I lost my faith years ago even though my mother brought me up Protestant, my father was Catholic.
I'm married with 2 daughters who were raised Catholic because my husband is the religious one in this family going to church and my daughters still go to mass every week.
I'm trying to gain as much knowledge as I can also because I want a different path. I'm not sure about giving up Jesus either but then again I need someone or something to pray to that feels right to me in my heart.
I also don't think I have any abilities either but do believe in magic and what it can do if the time is spent focusing and practicing.
Nice to meet you and maybe we can chat and be friends :)
There’s nothing wrong with being a Christian and using magic. Jesus uses magic, that’s how he was able to do things like heal the sick and walk on water. He even used it to raise himself from the dead. God gave him such great abilities with magic because it helps him do his job. Remember, the word Christ means ‘The Anointed One’. Also, it’s only wizards who require innate magic stored in one’s body, witches on the other hand focus on manipulating the magical energies that are already present on Earth. There’s even a coven on this site for Christian Wiccans, check it out on the Covens page.
