Okay thanks for the description. I understand that he hasn't caused any harm before. Well, physically at least. I know that not all spirits (demonic or not) can have different personalities, just like living things. However, you have to be super carful no matter who or what the spirit is. Because, just like living things, if a spirit means to harm you it has it's own way of attacking. You mentioned that you've dealt with depression for your whole life. Do you remember any sort of negative event from your childhood that could have triggered the depression (loosing a loved one, an accident such as a car crash, etc)? The reason I ask this is because spirits use different forms of energy depending on what their intentions are. Demons (or any other potentially harmful spirit) tend to feed off negative energy. This said, things such as depression, conflict, and tragedy tend to be a magnet for potentially harmful spirits since it helps them build up strength and energy. If the depression just came out of the blue then that is a sign that just screams "WARNING!". Now this plays into how it might harm you (if his intention is to harm you). Some spirits (no matter what their intentions are) take longer to build up energy then others (depending on what it is they are trying to do). In your case, this entity seems to have little to no problem showing himself to you. This is a good thing because you are aware of it's presents. However, the fact you've dealt with depression your who life and the entity has been around since you were a child is without a doubt concerning. Especially if there is a dark ora around him. I'm not forcing you to try and get rid of him, I'm going to try and do a bit more digging to see what I find. But, something I can tell you right away is, demons can build up energy and sometimes even gain a person's trust over a span of time lasting a couple days to a few decades. The reason that this is so important is because that the more energy and trust the demon is able to gain means that them lashing out can result in anything from a person passing out to full on possession. If I come across anything of importance I'll let you know. In the mean time all I can say is, be safe. If by any chance you can get his personal name, the name of his spirit type, or any other info that would be great. But as I said the other day, asking him questions like this can be dangerous if he is in fact a demon. So if you ask him, do so in a safe manner. Also, one more thing, demons and other negative entities are known to make people not want to get rid of them. Once again, I'm not trying to force you to get rid of him, however, you must keep this in mind. For now though, I'll see how much info I can gather based on the description you've given me and I'll let you know what I find.
Has anyone close to you made any deals, pacts, promises(could go back as long as before you was born)? Opened any doors they didn't properly close? I ask that because you interacted with it, it returned the action yet will do nothing more than be there, acknowledgement is like opening the door, they will usually take that as..... permission needed to move to the next level (whatever that might be to it, their intentions differ) that it only watches makes me think you either have a powerful protection on you or its held back by a contract/agreement/deal made by someone that as long as the contract hasn't been fulfilled or broken yet can do nothing but wait for payment or retribution.
@Madi A lot of life events happened for my depression. I born to a drug addicted mother and father, raised around drugs. Then when my mother got clean, she married a man, whom we thought was a good man, but over time you could tell he was the type who was 'dominate' and when he was challenged he would show he is boss. He was verbally abusive to my mother and my sisters and I. A few times he got physically abusive; with my sisters and my mother. Back in 2011, my best friend killed himself, which caused me to go deep into a depression. Then in 2014 my old youth group friend killed himself. I also had a part of my life where I was sexually abused by my boyfriend.
I always say Jesus' name out loud 3 times, because I heard if you can't say the Kings' name you're under demonic possessions. I also sometimes, when I feel more vulnerable I say the Lord's Prayer out loud.
@King
The only thing I could think of is my mother's best friend. He always watched over me even when he was alive. But he passed away, in my mother's lap when I was three, The only thing I can think of is that he made a pact to protect me; but I also kind of don't think that actually happened. He was Jewish, I believe it would've been against his beliefs. I even asked my mother about it, she was kind of offended.
@Madi, I'm not sure if this is important, but when I was using the Ouija board a while back, I got the name of Ereshkigal. I did some research on her and it says she is the goddess of the underworld. This happened a while ago when I was asking about things about my protector.
I'm sorry to hear about all of the bad things that have happened, I hope things will/have been getting better. Doing stuff like praying is always good protection so keep that up. Thank you for letting me know her name. However, ouija boards are known to open a gate way for other entities to possibly come into our realm. I did some research as well and it appears Ereshkigal is/was the goddess of death, in Sumerian (modern day Iraq) mythology. She is commonly compared to the demon Lillith and is known as the most feared Sumerian deity because she represented one's final destination in the underworld (there is said to be 7 or so layers of it kind of like hell), death. Yet, like the other deities she is/was highly respected. She is the sister Inanna, the Sumerian goddess of the heavens who she is know for not getting along with. Inanna's husband was Dumuzi (god of the shepherds). In the pome "Inanna's Descent to the Underworld" when Inanna went into the underworld it was believed she was going to die there. Ereshkigal did turn her sister Inanna into a corps and hang her by a hook on a wall. However, Inanna had asked her messanger to get help if she did not return after 3 days and 3 nights. After she had been missing for said amount of time, she gets help from Enki (the god of water, knowledge, mischief, crafts, and creation). Inanna is rescued but Ereshkigal demands another corpse to replace Inanna's and sends her out with 2 demons to bring said person to the underworld. The all the other gods and people they come across had all been in mourning. But when she saw Dumuzi, instead of him being in typical mourning attire, he was in magnificent and fancy robes and seemed to be doing just fine. Angered by her husband's lack of grief she told the demons to bring him to the underworld to take her place. Dumuzi runs away in a panic and is able to escape the demons. He then goes to Utu (the god of the Sun) who is able to help desguise him by transforming him into a snake as well as a variety of other creature and animals. I'm not saying it's Dumuzi but there might be a chance that he's the thing you've been seeing.
He may have spelt out Ereshkigal's name as a way to warn you about her demons chasing after him. He also might have chosen to go into certain churches or other places of worship rather then others to try and throw them off his trail.
@DargonFairy yeah that might have something to do with Utu as he is the sun god. The counting might have been something to do with Inanna being gone for 3 days and 3 nights.
I never looked that deep into it. A few other things happened, I remember them here and there. When I was finding my path, in the way beginning I was using my pendant and I asked a series of questions. I was asking about what was following me, I asked "Are you an angel," It went left to right. "Are you an angel of God?" Left to right "Are you an angel of Satan?" Front to back. I asked if about myself until I got to the question, "Am I an angel?" left to right, "am I an angel of God?" Left to right... I said goodbye.
Again my cousin was there and she could tell you I was in tears. I was afraid. Another thing that happened to me I was visited by something... A guy..
He stood at the side of my bed with his hand out for me to grab. Without hesitation I grabbed his hand and asked him where we were going, he then responds with ,"We're going to go to where you're from." I looked at him confusingly, "Well, I'm from here, aren't I?". He laughs "No, you're from a different realm. Not from this realm overthrown by humans. You my child, you're from Hell." I stand up out of bed confused, it all felt real, "What do you mean?" I asked. "Look around, dan you see it?" he asks me. I look around and I see my biggest fears and regrets on the walls, framed like a moving picture, then a doorway where I hear crying. I walk through the doorway and I see people down on their knees begging for forgiveness, that they don't want to see this anymore, some begging to God to forgive them, others begging Satan to be his lap dog. I turn around back to the room, I'm sitting across form the man, but this time there's no doorway, it's just him and I.
I ask him, "What is this? Where are we?" He looks at me with a charming grin, "This is Hell, this is your home, my sweetheart. You're human, yes, but you're also a demon."
"No way! There's no way!" I'm drawn to the picture on the wall, it's on my right, it's me, I've been out casted by my family, I have black wings.
I turn to my left and he's in my face. He picks my face up, as though to seduce me into these ideals, his face getting closer to mine.
"Your biggest fear is that they'll exile you if they find out, but that's the best part, they'll never know, " his lips touch mine.
I back away, but the wall got closer so I'm pinned against it, he whispers into my ear, "You're mine, my sweet, it's in your blood. "
I look at him, "Who are you?" I finally ask.
He grins so big, "I'm Lucifer! Your lord, your master! Come, won't you serve me? I mean you are part demon after all."
Before I could answer, my alarm clock wrong, it was time for work.
No mean to sound skeptical but did you happen to eat anything or take any meds that could give you nightmares? I know some foods, drinks, and medicines/drugs can sometimes do that. Even things you might not think of, for instance, if you consume to much nutmeg it can actually make you hallucinate. Another thing might be the fact that you got really freaked out by what happened with the pendant and your mind started messing with you. I'm not saying it didn't happen but these things have to be put into consideration. However, if it was in fact Lucifer things would have most likely been a lot worse. Also, demons rarely, if not never give anyone their name, even the well known ones. I had talked to a woman who works at an energy healing and spiritual center/store about this about a little over a week ago (I didn't tell her who you were I just described who/what you've been seeing). She told me that it was probably a very low class of demon and not to worry about it to much, cause it seemed to just want attention and to have someone to scare. There's another employee there who she told me specializes in stuff involving demons, spirits, etc. I'm probably going to stop by the store tomorrow afternoon so I'll let you know what he has to say if he's working tomorrow. Once again, sorry for being so skeptical. I just want to make sure it wasn't any sort of natural thing that could have caused a bad dream or hallucinations.
